Saturday, November 29, 2008

Stupid


You know I am so tired of this crap. Kyle calls me yesterday and says I'm not starting a fight but..........I always know, here we go again. IT's like he can't be happy with his own life , he has to call me and start shit with me. He is pissed off that someone said something about his girl. Quite frankly people can say what they want to say. I don't have any control over grown ass people ya know. I'm not going to protect her from people saying anything . She puts herself out there like that. I can't help that she chooses to protray herself as a XXXXXX, and people see it. Kyle told me that I needed to grow up...I laughed at him...I need to grow up. I told him that he is one to tell me that someone needs to grow up. Why doesn't he grow up and take responsiblity for his children? Why doesn't he grow up and get a REAL JOB!!! Why doesn't he grow up and pay his child support..... If he thinks that I am just going to sit down and let him get away with everything he has another thing coming. It isn't going to happen. If I have to call the attorney general everyday and ask them questions about the next step, then I will. If I have to go to court everyother week then I will. He either has to grow up and take responsiblity for himself and his children, or he just needs to disappear like his dad did. It isn't going to go away. I don't think he realiszes that when the kids are 18 it doesn't make the child support go away. If he still owes me money for them, then the attorney general is going to still be on his ass. He can't run from it, he can't hide from it........

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Happy Holiday's!!!

Today is Wednesday. The day before Thanksgiving. I am currently sitting in my living room listening to the kids fight. I told them that they have to clean up Zoei's room. Zane has to pick up all of the toys, and Zoei has to pick up the clothes and put them in the hamper. Neither one of them want to do it. But crap, I didn't want to clean the rest of the house, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I think I need to get better about making them clean their rooms more often. Usually it just stays a mess. Not crazy messy but there are toys out and usually clothes on the floor unitl I do laundry. I really shouldn't make them clean up their room because Melody is coming over today, and LORD knows they are going to tear it up. But I will make them clean it up again on Thursday. I already told Jeramy that the kids and their toys are staying in Zoei's room.... Not saying the kids have to stay in there the whole day but if they are playing with toys and running around then they can be in Zoei's room, or outside. Lord knows we have two acres out there, they have plenty of room to run free...lol So anyways I am going to get going. I have my room left to clean up and a couple more loads of laundry. I know you are thinking how can she have so much laundry, and the answer is I am trying to clean up all of the extra blankets.I don't know where Tabitha is plannin on sleeping tonight, or if she will bring blankets so figured I would be ready.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Turkey Day......Christmas.......ooooohhhhh I can't wait!

So the television situation is getting put on hold....YEAH!!!!!!!!! Yes it sucks not having the 52" anymore, but we have gone with out it for this long, so why not wait until after Christmas ya know. Speaking of Christmas I can't wait for it to get her. I know it will be here sooner than later but I really am pumped. We pretty much know everything that we are going to get the kids, Santa and all. We drew names the other day when Tabitha just showed up. We lucked out. We have to get Melissa, Melody, Micah, and Kevin presents for Jeramy's family. Then we are going to draw names again for the kids. That way they have one present to open at Vince's house and then another one to open at Grandmaw Cheryl's house. Then on top of that we are going to throw in on Kevin's Christmas. You all know the story. Bernard died over a year ago, and then his mom died this past May. So we gotta keep the tradition going. I would give him the world if I could. Anyways that takes care of Jeramy's family, then on to my family. We have to get my mom, dad, and ashley something. Maybe my grandmother if we can swing going over there. We usually go to Vince's house on Christmas Eve, which has been the tradition for years with my family. So maybe we can go to Vince's house and then swing by my g-maw's house... i don't know. THis is the one thing that I hate about the holiday's. We go here and there and all over the freakin place. Christmas day we are getting up and having santa here, then we are going to my moms house, then we are going to jeramy's moms house. Crazyness!!!! Personally I think we should go out to his moms house a little later. We are going to see them the night before....Let the kids get up and enjoy their presents for a while, then go to my moms house and open presents there. Let them chill with the kids for a while. I don't know will have to talk to Jeramy about all of it. See what he says. He isn't going to like driving all over the place because it will be his only day off. THey are going to work Christmas eve and then the day after Christmas.... That is why we are having thanksgiving here because he is working the day before and the day after and doesn't want to spend his only day off driving... Anyways Gotta go get ready for the day.... The only thing left for me to do is clean my room, and finish the dishes... I really slacked off yesterday and did nothing towards cleaning the house... so must make up for it today!

Monday, November 24, 2008

T.V.


So I have a delima. You are looking at a picture of our T.V. About 6 months ago we turned if off, went somewhere and when we came home the T.V. wouldn't turn back on. Still to this day it won't come on.You can push the power button, the green lights comes on, but the picture never comes up. Then it turns itself off and on a couple of times until it finally just quits. So anyways I called this repair guy that is over there on Arkansas. We had gone in there before right when it happened, but at the time didn't have the money to get it fixed. They come out today and after 5 minutes they say that we have a bad power supply. Guess what they charged for 5 minutes of work? $97.15 Holy cranoles! Oh and the power supply....to get it fixed..... $600.00 are you serious? I mean come on..... Anyways he says that we have 7 days to either take them up on fixing it, or to buy a T.V. from them.... They will take our T.V. in and give us money towards one of their's as well as apply that money for coming out towards one. So Jeramy wants me to see how much they will give us for our television. I am going to go up there and talk to them tomorrow. Jeramy said I can't go with you because I work all day long. I was like can't I just steal you away for an hour...... he shot me down. That is a big purchase ya know. I told him I didn't want him to say the one I pick out sucks, or I should of done this.... he was like just call me when you are there. After you talk to him then call me and we can talk about it. Made me feel a little better but I still want him there. Maybe I am just being winey....We will see what happens tomorrow.....

Turkey Day


Okay so I went shopping for Thanksgiving today. I know..I waited until the last minute. I just couldn't make myself get up and join in the madness. But today the mission was done. It was really easy , probably too easy. I found everything that I needed, one stop shop. I figured that I would have to go all over the place to find it all, but good ol' walmart had it all. I really didn't have to get that much stuff. I just got the fridge things and Tabitha is going to get the dry things. Going to be a house full. On Wednesday Tabitha is coming over. She is spending the night. Then on Thursday , Jeramy ,me, Zane, Zoei, Tom, Tabitha, Melissa, Melody, Cheryl, Jeramy's G-Parents,Lindy, and Jeramy's little bro Kevin.Going to be pretty crazy, but fun at the same time. Jeramy said that no matter what he is keeping more than a plate full of Turkey this year.LOL!!! He said damn it, since I am buying it this year , I get to get more than just a plate full....I was laughing so hard, because he was so serious about it. He said it joking,but you could tell that he really ment it. Glad it's going to be here because that means no running around all day long. We get to chill here and watch the game. Play games....The kids always have a blast.....

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Slowly getting the mission done.....


Slowly accomplishing my mission at hand: Cleaning. Dreadful, time consuming, never going to end....yeah I could go on and on about how much I'm NOT wanting to do this today. But when you have a whole family coming over for Thanksgiving, you have to put on the "fake house". lol..... With kids and a husband and working, and kids school, and karate...... it is hard to keep the house clean. I use to be a clean freak! Jeramy use to tell me he was going to start calling me Monica from Friends because I was just like her. But not any more. I can't believe all of the shit that I have picked up today. Toys all over the place, spots on the kitchen table that I thought were never going to come off, Toilets.....I'm not even going there....Pretty nasty when you put it all together. As I sit here now in my living room, Clean living room, I am enjoying the sent of clean. I still have to clean the whole kitchen and do the dishes. Then make my way to my room and bathroom. And then sweep and mop the WHOLE house. ...oh the joys of having hard wood floors throughout your house. When the kids get home today from their dad's house, I am going to have them tackle Zoei's room. Zane's room has basically become the "Toy" room. So all they really have to do is take the toys that are in Zoei's room now and put them in the toy boxes in Zane's room, and then pick up all of their dirty clothes. Oh that is another thing.... I have so much laundry to do. Do you know how much I hate laundry? It is a never ending process. The day that you have ALL of the laundry done feels so good, but then you go to sleep that night and take off the clothes you had on for that day, and there you go...you are no longer laundry free! There is a load itself when you think about shirts , pants, socks and undies for four people..... Oh the joy's of being a mom and a "wife." Would I change it for the world, Not for a million trillion dollars, but hey I can bitch sometimes can't I? It is now 1:10 in the afternoon, and I am exhausted....... maybe I can clean the rest of the house and then squeeze in a nap in before the kids get home at 6. I'm gonna try

Friday, November 21, 2008

Told to go shopping......NO WAY!!!!!


I just love my Jeramy! He just called me and asked me what I was doing. I said well kind of getting ready for work. He said is there anything at work that is really important? I told him that I think that Dr.C mailed all of the Rx's but that I had to go up there to make sure. He said well, why don't after you do that you go shopping. I said ,"what?" He said yeah, why don't you take the day off and go shopping. I said you are amazing. What man calls his woman and says go spend some money....lol. Most men are like ,"What, you spent how much....on that... oh my gosh." HAHAHAHAHHAHAH Yes it is true and you know it. So I am going to get off of this computer and go up to the office. Make sure that there are not any Rx's up there waiting for people to come and pick them up. Then I am going shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.M.I.


There is nothing better than waking up at 5:30 and getting a piece of ass, morning breath sleep in the eyes...ahhhh what could be better...... I know T.M.I. hahaha The day started off good in my book. Last night I got kind of mad at Jeramy. I talked to him at 4 and he said that they were going to go do some punch, then they would be off. So I said so I will see you in a couple of hours and he said yeah... So at 7 I txt him and asked him if he was going to be headed home anytime soon because dinner was ready. He said no, so I thought he was still working. At 8 I txt him again and said that I was hungry and to hurry his ass up because I was waiting on him to eat the enchiladas that I made. He txt me back and said not to worry about him....kind of weird I thought but didn't think anything of it. So at 9:20 I get a call from him, and I could tell from the moment he said Hey baby...that he was up to something. So he goes on to tell me that he and the guys went out and got some beers and had a guys night out after work. I said OK, he said I will just talk to you when I get home. So about 10 he comes home, drunk as shit. He thought that I was mad about him going out. I said I am not mad about you having friends and going out with them. I said I go out every Friday night with my girls, so that isn't what it is all about. He asked then what is it all about . He said is it because we went to Hooters. I said no, I could care less if you go to hooters. I said it is the fact that you never said anything to me about it. I said you know every time when I am going out , where I am going out to, who I am with. I said it makes me think that you were trying to get one over on me. He said why? I said because you could of called. You could of called and said hey the guys and i are going out be home in a little while. Or when I txt you , you could have put on there that you were going out. So he agreed that if I were to do the same that he would be a little mad too. And that next time he would tell me instead of calling me after the fact. I told him that if this would of happened a year ago, then I would of been really pissed. Because a year ago, I wasn't were I am now. I trust him with everything and know that he isn't going to do anything to hurt me, now..... I think he was a little shocked that I wasn't as mad as he thought that i would be. I tried to explain to him that I want him to have friends to go out with. I want him to have his guys night out. I said everyone needs their time away. I have nothing against that because I understand it. I look forward to my drinking nights on Friday's. Anyways he was really drunk. You all know that Jeramy doesn't drink that much... hardly at all. So he slammed 7 beers in about an hour and a half. He truly was drunk. I told him this morning that I haven't seen him that drunk in a LONG time. It was funny watching him. I wonder if I look like he did when I am that drunk?....... I love that little booger and so glad he is in my life. I know that it felt good for him to go out and get away for a little while. I know that it felt good to pay for all of the drinks for the guys....He spent 120.00...so girls...we are drinking it up tonight....lol... It does good things for a person. ya know what I mean. He deserves it with him working 12-14 hour days. He would deserve it anyway, but you know what I am getting at. Life is oh so good right now, and we both are feeling on top of the world.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Church on Wednesday night


The image is really small but the feelings that you get when you have been in this place are bigger than life itself. Last night I went to church with Michele. This place is amazing. I feel in love with it when I went for the first time many months ago. Stephanie, Chele and I would go every Wednesday. Then I started going to school, and Jeramy's work schedule changed so I had to stop going. Well with all of this drama that has been surrounding me for the past couple of months, I decided that I needed to get grounded again. I needed to go back to the place where when I went for the first time I cried my eyes out. I needed to go back to the place where you can feel GOD in that place. The voice singing, the people dancing, the testimonies..... there are not words to describe what a powerful place it is. Everyone needs to experience The Well on Wednesday nights. There is no way that you can say there is no GOD when you have been there. It was really crazy because once again I felt like they were talking to me. My heart was open , and just listening to what GOD was saying. One of the singers said that he just wanted to say that GOD was telling him the word Defeated. Maybe there is a situation you are in or dealing with where you feel defeated, My eyes just started welling up with tears. I really hate this whole situation with Kyle. And I do feel defeated when I try to explain to him where I am coming from and he doesn't see it. I feel defeated when instead of him acknowledging what I am saying he automatically thinks it is me out to get him. So when he said that, I stood there in amazement. I needed to be there last night and hear those words. GOD has a plan for our lives. And HE will come through. No amount of stressing about it, no matter how many times you get up in the night thinking about it, GOD has a plan. HE knows what is best for this situation. HE knows everything that goes on, and HE will protect my babies. HE will show me what I need to do and how I need to do. We as a people are so blessed by GOD. We, well I for sure get caught up in the day to day "life". We all need to remember why we are here on this earth..... and it is to Glorify GOD, Praise GOD, teach people about GOD....... That is what it is all about. The material things, the stupid fights, the stress, the craziness of this life is nothing. When you think about GOD and his powers, his love for everyone, you have to stand in amazement. I am truly blessed with a wonderful life, and it is all because of HIM. GOD is oh so good, and so am I.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Getting thing out of my head....pondering

Okay, Okay I know I know. You are wondering if this girl ever stops writing. Does this chick ever run out of things to say. Answer to your question is NO.... my mind constantly runs, constantly thinks of this or that. I can't help it. lol So either deal with it or stop reading my blogs....lmao
What I am thinking about now... the hearing at the court house. Are they going to suspend Kyle's rights? Are they going to suspend his visitation? Are they going to put a warrant out for his arrest? I really don't know anything about it or what to expect. I am so caught between Kyle being their biological father, and Jeramy being their constant Father figure in their lives. Kyle says it is because of the divorce that he isn't around more than twice a month. Which is true, he can't legally take them more than every other weekend. I said this to Kyle yesterday so I don't have to worry about hurting his feelings but I personally think Jeramy is a better role model. They see him working everyday, all day long. They see him having a place to call home, a bed for them to sleep in, they see him paying the bills, they see him playing and loving on them. The life that Jeramy leads is one of a real man. Not bashing Kyle or anything but it is true. Kyle admits that he isn't stable. Kyle knows that I don't approve of how he lives his life and who is hangs around. But he is a 28 year old man, who can do what he pleases. I just don't think that the people that he hangs around, or the things that he does while the kids are with him should be allowed. No I don't know these people personally but I was with Kyle for 7 years. I know the kind of people he hangs around. Do I think that they need to be around people drinking and getting tattoos and shit...no. That is not an environment that kids need to be around. Do I think that it is safe for their little minds to be in a different place with different people everytime they see him...no. I personally don't think Kyle should be in their lives until he gets stable, has a place to call his own, a place for them to come to. Wrong of me maybe to not want him around. But my thinking is if he can't provide for them like he needs to then he doesn't need to take them. He lives in south Texas, but when he takes the kids they stay at some dude's house. While they are there Kyle is doing tattoo's on the guy, all while the kids are left to find something to do. Last weekend they had fun because there were other kids there for them to play with, but Kyle is suppose to be spending time with them. He isn't suppose to be so busy doing something else that he can't just chill with them. Do I think the kids should know Kyle...yes. Regardless of everything that is their biological father so they should know him and have a relationship with him, but would it be better for them to have a relationship with him when they are older? I think so. I don't think they need to be involved in all of the changes in his life. I don't think they need to be involved in all the drama that surrounds his life. What do you think? Is it better for Kyle to be out of their lives until he gets stable? or Is it better for the kids to have a relationship with him now even though he is all over the place? I really don't know what to do, or what to think. Should he sign over his rights? He doesn't have to worry about going to jail then, He doesn't have to worry about having a place for them to come to, He doesn't have to worry about anything when it comes to them if that happens. I know Kyle see's me as the bad one. I know he looks at me like I am out to get him, which isn't true. I just want what is best for my children, and if he can't provide that for them, then in my opionion he needs to be out of the picture. Tell me what you think......

Starting the day off right


So my day started off wonderful. Usually Jeramy gets up at 5:30 and gets ready for work, then comes in the bedroom and kisses me before he leaves for work at 6:15. Well this morning Tristian the guy that picks him up was running late. So when my alarm went off at 6:40 he came in the bedroom. I got to snuggle with him until Tristian showed up.Then after he left he called me about 10 minutes later and said I just want to tell you that I love you more than anything and I hope you have a good day! Isn't that sweet? I really love that man more than life itself. I love that he goes out of his way to make sure that I know that he loves me. He thinks about all the small things. Which is what I really like. Yes you all know all of this already, but I just can't help but talk about it. I feel really lucky to have such a great guy in my life. Not only is he a great guy for me, but he is an awesome "dad" to the munchkins.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Heart to heart with ........

Heart to heart with Kyle Ray???? Yes you heard me right. He called me today because I had text him. I was just telling him that Zane wants to go with him this weekend but Zoei wanted to stay here because she wants to go to her friends birthday party. He said can we talk... I of course say yes. He said can we just get along. So I said that we need to because we have two children to raise. We talked about the court system and everything that is going on with that. I told him that he could call the attorney general and get the court date and everything. He said that it feels like to him that I want him out of the picture and I want Jeramy to be there dad. I said can I be quite honest with you right now. He said yes. So I told him that I though that Jeramy was a better role model than he is, But that HE is their biological father and there is nothing to change that. That I want him to do everything that he is suppose to do. I told him that the kids love him and have a blast with him. They know nothing other than that is their father and they love him. They still have innocent eyes. I told him what I have always told him that I will never talk bad about him to them. Regardless of everything that is their father. Point blank, plain and simple. He said something to me about Jeramy getting on the phone last time we got into it. I told him that the reason was because we were going back and forth yelling and screaming and nothing was getting done. So Jeramy took the phone so that he could calm the situation down. Kyle said that he doesn't want that to happen again. He doesn't want to have to deal with Jeramy. I said ok. I don't have a problem with it as long as things don't get crazy again. I told him that if Rachel says one more thing that I am going to put her in her place. I said quite frankly she has been around for four months, and knows nothing about the past eleven years. I told him she doesn't even have custody of her own daughter so for her to tell me what she thinks I am doing wrong as a parent, or what I need to do with my children is out of line. I don't have anything against her, but when you cross that line, i am done with you, and will have no problem telling you what I think of you. ya know what I mean??? She should of kept her nose out of it. According to him he has either already told her or will tell her to shut up. We agreed that as long as he does what he is court ordered to do then I won't have a problem with him. He asked me to quit calling his time with the kids just a play date. I said that I would. I told him that is going off of a lot of other times. I said that before these past 6 weeks, and before he took them for the summer, He would go months without seeing the kids. He said that he understood that. He told me that when he said that he was going to call CPS on me that he just said it out of anger. I told him that my biggest fear, and he knows it is that my kids have to go live with him, or someone else for that matter. I said there is nothing that I am doing wrong as a mother, and he agreed. We ended on pretty good terms. I feel like he got to say what he needed to say and I got to tell him what I wanted to tell him. So as of right now everything is all good in this hood.....

Marriage.... putting off...... maybe.......


So Jeramy and I were talking yesterday and it is still up in the air but we might be putting off the wedding for a little while. Being that we haven't really done anything to prepare for it, and can't afford a wedding planner........ Like I said it is still up in the air. We haven't made up our minds yet. I did tell him that I don't want to wait another year to have a kid. Wrong???? Not being married before we have a kid. In GOD's eyes it is. I don't know. I told him my plan was to get my IUD taken out in Jan., then us get married in March, and I was planning on being prego by the summer...lol. But it looks like now my plan might still be on, just not the marriage in March. Last night was the first night that we talked about it. I have mixed feelings about it. I really want to get married, but money wise, it wouldn't be smart. I guess having a baby wouldn't be money smart either....lol The big thing is there are so many benifits to being a "single" mother right now. If Jeramy and I get married then those options go away...or atleast go down. Having another baby wouldn't change the options that I am talking about... Who knows what will happen. We will see.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Well started off just random, but got into letting things off my chest

It's Monday..... It is about 2:30 in the afternoon. I am home from work, and now I am just waiting on the clock to go get the kids from school. Nothing really exciting happened today

Well Nothing worth talking about. Seems pretty chill. Espically after all of the drama that I went through this weekend. I don't know why it always has to come to that with him ya know. I guess it just comes with the territory of being the ex-wife/mother of his children. Pretty sad when you think of it all. We use to be eachother's everything. It was Kyle and I against everything and everyone, and now it is April against Kyle. I am sad for the kids that they have to go through all of this. No they don't know everything that is going on. They know some from over hearing me talk about it, and then they ask questions. I can't tell them everything because after all that is their father ya know. So I just explain it to them the best that I know how. Without trashing Kyle. All they know is that is their father and they love him. Which is the way that I want it to be. I have always said that I would never talk crap about him to them. Yes I write it on here, but the kids don't know this web site even exists. Besides if they did, I have parental controls over what they can do on the computer and you can't get to this site....No matter what my feelings are towards him and his actions, that is their father. There is nothing that I can do to change that. I just have to protect them. It is hard to protect them when I don't know where he is living, I don't know where he is taking them, i don't know what kind of situations he is putting them in. I just have to pray that GOD looks out for them while they are with him. Even with all of the crazy things that have happened while they are with him, they have never been hurt in the end. We all know that is from the Man upstairs. LORD knows there are a lot of things that could of happened with some of the things that they have done while they were in his care. When they are with me I know without a doubt that they are taken care of better than anyone else could ever take care of them. It is what being a mother is all about. We, as mother's know what is best for our children. There is just this instinct that comes with being a mother. I love those little boogers more than life itself. I would do anything and everything to make sure they are taken care of , and are getting the best that I can give them. I wish their other parent would take charge and do the same but that is never going to happen. I don't know when I will realize that he isn't going to be the kind of dad that I think he should be. He isn't going to put them before himself. That hurts my heart to think that they come second in his life, but that is just how it is. Nothing and no one is going to change who he is. I have to some how learn to be at peace with that. Will I do everything in my power, what I can legally do to make sure he is doing what he needs to be doing , yes. But in the end it isn't going to change anything. Letting go of your expectations of someone is really hard to do. I expect him to do so much more, but he only does what he has to do to get by. Well really he doesn't do that. Yes for the past 6 weeks he has picked them up on his weekends, but that is the first time that is has happened since we split up. He did keep them when we first split up back in 05, But that was due to Zane still being in school, and me having to live with someone else. I didn't want to take him out of school, move to arlington and then have to move again to our apartment. So it was really only for about 2 months after I left him that they stayed with Kyle. Then after Jeramy and I moved into our apartment they came to live with us. That was a crazy time in my life. I was working at UPS. I would work from 2 am till 8am, then come home and stay up with them all day long until my mom got home at 6 or 7. Then she would watch them so that I could go home and get a couple of hours of sleep before I would have to wake up at midnight and do it all over again. Things we will do to make sure our kids are taken care of. This life of mine has been a whirl wind to say the least. But in the end I wouldn't change any of it. I would go through all of the crazy drug induced bullshit with Kyle, I would live at my moms house while he lived in the waffle house parking lot in our car, I would stick up for him when everyone was telling me to get out. I would take all of the fights and heart ache again. Because all of it has gotten me where I am today. I wouldn't look at life like I do, I wouldn't know the tell tell signs of bullshit, I wouldn't know any of life's ups and downs.And most important I wouldn't have my children, so for that part I am thankful. I have been on this planet for 25 years..... I am curious as to what the next 25 years are going to bring.

My Name

Holy Crap, my name is still April Williamson. I was talking to SSI about Zane and she was trying to find him. The case number that I had went to a different department so she said what is your name. I said April Bowling. She tried to look it up by that and didn't find anything. So she asked me what my social security number was and I told her. She said your name is still listed as April Williamson....... My mouth hit the floor. lol. She is going to send me the paperwork to change it, but I got to thinking is it really worth it? I am getting married in four months and will have to change it again. So do I just keep it Williamson for now and just change it when Jeramy and I get married? There really is no point in getting another ss card when I will be getting another one is four months ya know. Crazy Crazy. I never went by Williamson even when we were married. I always kept Bowling I never took his last name. Oh well.....not really much to do about it now. I mean I could but what it the point. I am really amused by it. I thought for sure I was done with everything that I needed to do. The judge even asked me when we were getting our divorce and I told him that there was no reason to change my name back to Bowling because I never used Williamson while we were married. I really don't know how it all happened but that is how they have it.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Sunday Morning


It is 9:32 Sunday morning and I am the only one who is awake. The kids are still sunggled up in bed sleeping. Jeramy is in bed, but I don't know if he is sleeping or just laying there. The cats are running around like crazy. I need to go get them some food. I hear Zane coughing...I wonder if he is getting sick. He had a snotty nose yesterday, so I wonder if it has gone into his chest. It is so cold in my house right now. I had been telling my landlord that he needed to fix the a/c heater because the compressor was going out. It was making this loud crazy noise for a long time. So on Friday a man showed up to fix it. He took the compressor out and tried to fix it. He put it back in and it was still making that same noise. So he said that he was going to call Tony and tell him that he needs to replace the whole until. Good news for us ya know. The bad part about it is he wasn't going to be able to make it back over until next week. SO that means no heater. I went last night and bought two space heaters to put one in the kids room and one in our room. It did the trick for the rooms, but being that there was nothing in the living room all night , it is cold as shit in here right now. Anyways I am going to go to the store to buy biscuits and gravy and eggs and bacon. Gonna make a big home cooked country breakfast this morning. Peace out!!!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Happy with my life and the choices that I have made

There are so many things that I want to say to her. There are so many things that I want to say to him. But I will save it all for the court room. They can say that I left my kids for dope. Never happened. Kyle and I split up because he bashed my head up against a window while I was 8 months prego. I will take a drug test to prove the smoking weed thing is not true. Getting caught cheating in my own bed, its a laugh. I never cheated on Kyle. He for 7 years cheated with everyone and everything. She might want to get tested just to be safe.lol... I have to remind myself that she is looking stupid because she is getting all of her information from Kyle. We all know Kyle lies and says whatever he needs to say for the moment in time. It will all come out. They have to talk crap about me and make up lies because they are not big enough to admit that they are in the wrong. It is easier for Kyle to make me the bad person than to admit that he is in contempt of court. That is alright. He is a 28 year old man living with his mommy and has nothing to offer his children. I understand where he feels less of a man. I will just pray for them.

Can you tell that she is getting her information from Kyle

A responsible parent does not leave their kids for 2 years because they prefer dope over their own children. A responsible parent does not leave their children at home while the mom and stepdad goes to the store... That is so sad when the kids called me crying. A responsible parent does not talk to a person who has poisoned their kids in the past with a combination of cold medicine and sleeping pills... Damn I wish I did not have to be there when it happened. A responsible parent does not sis outside on their front porch smoking weed while the kids can see and smell it... I hate it when they tell me this about the other irresponsible parent. a responsible parent does not bitch and whine about support and money but buys a fucking computer.... I hope the kids can still eat. A responsible parent does not slander the other parent over the internet because the kids do see everything... SUCKS. And we shall continue..... A mature parent does not go out and get trashed and then writes about it for everyone to see.... What a DRUNK. A mature person would not act like a child when it comes to adult situations...." she deleted her comment, haha".... GROW UP....You are a parent and not in high school. Maybe that is what this person feels like...Stuck in high school mode. No one should bring the other person's mother into this. NOT A GOOD IDEA. You cant be an adult about this situation. And stop crying and complaining about your boyfriend working so damn much. You could just do what you did before.... cheat on him, in your own bed, while he is at work, so he can catch you like you were caught before. Maybe you act the way you do because you are used to being a baby.I am posting this for everyone to see how fucked up this is. Going to church will not make you look like a better person. It only proves that you are decieving others. No I do not go to church. I do not believe in religion or this so called god. If someone is in hospital and sick, god will not save you, the medicines that the hospital does. Dont thank god... thank your local hospital and doctors for saving your sick and wounded ass. Dont thank god that you got a job or a raise, thank yourself for getting up off that ass and getting it.And So what I post pictures of me. That is me and my life, not yours to be reposting them and running your mouth about. Maybe you wont like it if I put pictures of you and your boyfriend, fuckbuddy, or whatever it is, smoking weed on the front porch. You can say whatever you want. I know what the truth is. its all in the evidence. I think it is time for everyone to STOP, TAKE A BREATH and all just shut the fuck up!!! There is no reason for a 25 year old to act like a 5 year old

I'm not even going to respond to this. Everyone who knows me and has been around since Kyle came into the picture knows the truth. Everything that he said that I did, HE did. I am sorry that Rachel doesn't believe in GOD, and is being feed all of these lies by Kyle. We need to pray that she realizes what is really going on. We need to pray for her soul.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Amused

I am really amused with this whole Kyle thing. I have so much more to say about it. And since he yelled at me for writing things for the whole world to see, I might as well do it some more just to piss him off. What would his life be if I weren't in it to make him mad? Na I'm just playing. It is funny to me that he gets so mad at me and I am the bad one for doing what I said I would never do. Yes when we were still in love and things were good we both agreed that we would never make the other one pay child support. But you know what I was young and dumb. I wasn't living in the real world then if ya know what I mean. Growing up and maturing over these past couple of years, I have learned to let go of taking care of him. I have learned to let go of the things that he does in his life. It is now all about the kids. Their well being comes first and that means that their father(biological) needs to grow up and be a man and take care of these two kids. If he doesn't want to then he needs to sign over his rights. Either be a real man and pay for your children, see them when you are suppose to or go the fuck on. They don't need a part time dad or a play date twice a month. They have a "dad" here and friends at school.....lol. Anyways I could go on and on about a lot of things, but I'm not. He can just deal with what he has brought on himself.

round 50 million in the Kyle drama


So here is round 50 million of the Kyle drama He just called me bitching at me for writing the blog about getting a court date. He is mad because he says that I am putting our personal business out for the whole world to see. So I said to him, do you not post pictures and video's of what you are doing in your life? I posted a couple of the ones that he has posted just to prove my point. I said if it wasn't about you then you wouldn't care what I was saying. He said that he is going to print off all of this, just like he said a couple of weeks ago, and show it to the judge. I said I will print it off for you. These are blogs, journals whatever you want to call them. I have things on here from way back in 05. I have journals form when I was 13 years old. I have always been a writer. Just my way of getting things out of my head. Anyways he went on to say that he'll be glad if they throw him in jail. Atleast that way he will get a place to sleep and three square meals a day. Isn't that immature? He said you obviously are not doing too bad. You have a new car, you have a computer in your house now...etc.... I'm trying to get things in order so that I can do that. I said it isn't Jeramy's place to work 14 hours a day just to make sure the kids are taken care of. It isn't about how much money or how much Jeramy works. It is about him not paying for his children. It's about him not doing what he is court ordered to do.I told him that he has been "trying" for the past four years. I said you don't try Kyle you live off of this girl for three months, and either she gets tired of you or you find someone else and you move on to the next one. Nora was the only one that he stayed with for more than 4 months. He said that is why I am not trying to take them from you full time. I said oh...that isn't what you said 6 weeks ago. Remember 6 weeks ago he was going to take me to court and get the kids, he was going to call CPS on me. He already had a lawyer and had already printed off the papers and had given them to his lawyer. BULLSHIT!!! I knew it from the begining. He isn't going to do any of it. It is my job to stick up for these kids, and that is what I am going to do. If it means his life being harder then so be it.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

you will get tired of me saying this

You are going to get tired of me saying the same thing over and over again. But I am having Jeramy withdrawls.....lol I miss that little booger. Today is going to be yet another long day. It is going to take me getting use to him not being here a lot. I was so use to him being here when I left for work in the mornings. Then I would come home and we would walk together to go get the kids. We would eat dinner together as a family and then the kids would go to bed and we would chill, then go to bed and start the day over again. Now he is gone when I get up in the mornings. He kisses me and we say we love eachother and have a good day and all the little kid things we say to eachother. Then he is off.... for a long time. I am so happy that he is going to be off on Sunday. I told him he isn't allowed to get out of bed unless he has to pee. Period. If he is hungry then I will get it for him, if he wants this or that I will do it. Working two weeks straight without a day off would take it's toll on anyone, but working 14 hour days during that two week period will REALLY take it's toll on someone. Thankful....yes. Greatful....yes. Proud of him....yes. I just miss him

Court date


So I finally got a court date! YEA!!!!! The whole child support system is a joke. First the person has to be over 30 days behind. Then they send out a letter and they have 30 days to respond to that . If they don't then they send out another letter and they have 15 days to respond to that. After they find out where he is working they send out a wage withholding form and the employer has 4 to 6 weeks to respond to it. All the while the mother is stuck. No money coming in from the other parent. Not that it is going to make or break me. 46 Dollars a week for two kids is a joke anyway. But it is the principal behind all of it. If you help make kids you have to pay for the kids. Doesn't matter what is going on in your own life, you still have to pay for the kids. Their well being and their needs comes before everything and anything you could ever want. Some of us have realized that but some of us haven't.....lol. So with a lot of bitching on my part, they finally set up a court date. I am so excited because I finally get to do something about him not paying. I finally get to say to a judge that he hasn't paid anything until June. I get to tell the judge that he is in contempt of court on so many levels. He might go to jail but at this point in time I really don't care. I have tried the nice way, I have tried saying okay let him get on his feet and then he will pay, I have tried screaming matches with him about how he doesn't do our kids right and how even court ordered he still does nothing for these kids. Nothing is going to work. Nothing I say or do is going to make him see that he HAS to pay the money. So maybe a judge will make him pay. I get to tell the judge that my kids come home telling me how their dad doesn't wake up with them in the morning to feed them. He tells them that they have to wait until he wakes up to eat. Now I am not there, but the kids are 7 and 5 now. They know when something is not right. They have been in such a routine for the past 3 1/2 years. They are use to getting up at 7 or 8 in the morning and eating. They are use to going to bed by 8:30. According to them their father doesn't do anything. Pretty said that they can realize that. For so long I was the one saying I'm not going to do anything about it. I always was worried about him and his well being but not anymore. These kids deserve the best that we can give them and he isn't doing anything. Yes for the past 6 weeks he has shown up on time to pick them up on his weekends. He started off not dropping them off until 6, but this last time is was closer to 5:45. So it just tells me that next time it is going to be earlier. I have to say that I didn't expect him to last this long with picking them up and doing that part of it. But in all honesty that is the only thing that he does for them. Pick them up and drop them off. I am really excited about the court date. Finally a judge is going to hear what has been going on. Hopefully he see's where I am coming from in being scared for my kids safty while they are with him. Every time they see him they spend the night at someone else's house. A couple of weeks ago they were at some house and the kids came home telling me that they spent one night there and then the next day they went to get something to eat and came back. Kyle and this guy I guess started fighting and the guy got a knife out and told Kyle he had 5 minutes to get out of the house. My kids were there to see that. I asked Kyle about it and he told me the kids were lying. So I went and asked the kids. I said you know that story you just told me, and they were both like yeah...I said I asked your dad about it and he told me that you two were lying. There little mouths hit the floor. Both said mommy we are not lying. They were fighting and then on the way to meme's house he was calling all of his friends telling them what happened. They couldn't believe that their dad called them liars. I guess this past weekend they went over there again, and their dad told them that they were just playin. So Zane said our dad just played a joke on us..... I am thinking in my head screw that. He is just trying to make the kids feel better. He is lying to the kids. I know after being with Kyle for 7 years and living with him all over the place for 5 years exactly what happens. I have been in that situation many times with him. I don't want my kids involved in that shit ya know. Anyways GOD is good and will come through in this situation. I know he will make things right.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Jeramy


So there is another long night ahead for this man. Yesterday he left the house at 6:30am, and walked back in the door at 10:30. He stayed up long enough to eat and take a bath to ease his sore body. Then he was off to sleep. He was suppose to get up at 5:30 this morning but overslept. The alarm went off for me at 6:35. I thought when it went off it was for Jeramy but he said April you have to get up too. I was like why??? He then informed me of what time it was. He got up and got ready really quickly. In the process Tristian called and said are you up already? Why didn't you call me. Jeramy was like I just got up too man, and I was going to get ready and then call you. Everyone overslept today but after working for 14 hours I guess it is allowed. Lol......Anyways he left the house this morning and it is 8:20 and he still isn't home. He said they were going to finish one more house and then he would be home. So hopefully if I get my wish he will be walking in the door within the next 45 minutes or so. I hope for his sake that he isn't out until 10:30 again....we will see.... All in a day of the life of the Wilcox's......

Prayers worked...Update on Nate

So I just checked my voicemail and Nora called. She said in her message that everything went well. He is in ICU right now but that he is going to be transfered to his own room. PRAISE GOD!!!! That is a major surgery to go through, brain surgery and with GOD's help, everything went as planned. THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!

Thankful

I am just giving praise to GOD above! HE is amazing. I am blessed with the best kids a mom could ask for. I am blessed with the best most amazing man a woman could ask for. My family is wonderful, my friends are fabulous. I just don't know what more a person could ask for. I had so much fun just hanging out with my kids yesterday. Well Zoei and I were playing all day long, Zane was playing his DS but that is typical of him. lol. I look at them in amazement. They come home these little tiny things who know nothing and need you for everything. Now they are 7 and 5 and know so much. We had a long converstation about Columbus yesterday. And I just sat in awe that they know so much. Their little brains just soak up so much. I am so thankful that GOD chose me to be their mom. Not only do they need me , but I need them. They saved me from my own distruction. LORD knows where I would be and what I would be doing if they weren't in my life. If I didn't have to think about their well being, I can only imagine. It's scary to me.
Jeramy finally came home last night at 10:30. I am still in shock that he works as long and as hard as he does. It is paying off though. He brought home his paycheck yesterday and it was 826.00 dollars for one week. His paycheck for next week is going to be in the 900's. You know they say that money doesn't make you happy. I do agree but it does make life so much easier. Not having the stress of worrying about paying this and not paying that. Trying to figure out how you are going to spread it all out. I feel like we are on top of the world right now. I just thank GOD above. It is all from him, and I am in such debt. Life is this amazing crazy ride. Loving life right now!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Ramble


Isn't this picture pretty? I love crosses. Anyways today is the day for Nora's brother's surgery. Keep them in your prayers today. I can't imagine what they are going through. It's just hard no matter how you look at it.
I plan on getting up and going to work sometime today. lol. Dr. Carlin is out of town and only wants me to go into the office twice this week. So I should go today. Not to work but to count up my hours so that I can get my paycheck from Edmund. So there are so many things that I want to say and tell you guys but I can't on here. Which is not like me because I usually just put everything out there, but this thing is really important. Hopefully there are going to be a lot of changes I guess we can say it that way.........lol

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Prayers


So here is the situation:
Yes it is a little weird that I still talk to Kyle's ex girlfriend Nora but life is crazy like that. Anyways her little brother Nate has been having headaches for a while. They eventually go to the dr and he finds a sisk growing on his brain. Really large sisk. At first the dr didn't want to preform the surgery due to the size and risk of it. I don't know if that dr is going to be the one to do the surgery or if they found another dr to do it. Regardless on Tuesday he is having it removed. Brain surgery. He is probably in the best of hands but it would still be a scary thing to go through. So we need to lift him up in prayer. We need to pray for him that he will make it through all of this, for his family that they will be able to make it through all of this. We need to pray for the dr's, that GOD will guide their hands and everything will go as planned. GOD is in control as we all know. So there is nothing left to do but pray and trust in GOD that things will be okay.

Broken heart


Well my heart is broken because my little sisters heart is broken. I hate that she has to go through all of this. I won't tell the details because that is her business. I just hate hearing her cry. Knowing exactly what she is going through. I told her it is hard when your heart gets involved. I went through 7 years of ups and downs because my heart was so involved. You don't want to put up with all of the bull shit and you want so much more out of life and a relationship but in the same breath your heart wants to stay and not let go because you love the person. You are torn between the two evils. Do you do what your head is telling you or do you hold on to the hope that things will change for the sake of not breaking your own heart. Life is so hard, and when it is your little sister that is going through the heart break, you want to do anything and everything to make it go away. I just want to shake him and say what the fuck are you doing. Do you know how much she loves you, do you know how much she wants to make this work, do you know how much she does for you, and this is how you treat her..... uuuugggghhhh men sometimes make no sence at all. So just keep Ashley in your prayers. I told her that she will know what to do when she talks to him.She will know if he is lying, she will know if what he is saying is for real or if he is just saying things to keep her around for a little longer. My poor baby sister........

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Ramble


This picture speaks for itself. I am so freakin bored! I'm not going to be able to pick up Jeramy until 8 or 9. SUCKS DONKEY BALLS!!!! I am going out with the girls tonight but that isn't until after I pick up Jeramy. I have watch all the t.v. that one person can watch in a day, I have done some laundry, haven't done dishes but that doesn't appeal to me right now. All I want to do it mope around...lol. Not really I don't really want to go anywhere right now....I just wish J was here with me now. It is like a double bladed knife. Him working all of these hours makes us a lot of money, but he is gone all day long. For instance I took him to work this morning, he had to be there at 7:30...and he isn't going to get off until 9...........uuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. I guess I will just sit here and twiddle my thumbs lol......

Just chillin


So this is what I am going to be doing this whole weekend. The kids are gone to their dads house. Jeramy is working all weekend long, so I will be sitting here looking at myself in the mirror. It's like when everyone is here and there is so much to do you wait for moments like this when you are all alone, no one to wait on, no one yelling mommy....but then it gets here and you are like what am I going to do with myself. Life is crazy like that! Anyways I went out with Tabitha and Carl last night to G's. I had planned on staying in because we are going out tonight for Jennifer's divorce party. But figured I would go and chill with Tabitha. It's funny cuz Carl and I were sitting there and Carl looked at me and said," I don't get it." I was like what?, He said" she invites you to go out with her so that she can spend time just you and her, and she is up talking to everyone else but you." I laughed. It was funny to me that he noticed that. It's cool with me... I just sat there and drank my beer. So much drama there last night. Tabitha almost got into a fight. This crazy drunk bitch came in talking shit to her. Just stupid drama. I was cool with it until the bitch tried to jump over the table to get to Tabitha and knocked my hat off my head. I got up and stood beside Tabitha and told her to let it go that it wasn't worth fighting them. Earl and DJ 2 Cool was all up in it. They didn't start really trying to do anything until they had men holding them back, so then they tried to be all hard and shit. Young kids who haven't yet figured out how to hold their beer. Have to start drama. I was smiling the whole time thinking this is fucking stupid. Anyways I finished my beer and left at 11:30. It will be fun tonight though. MY Shannon and Rachelle are going to be there. So it is now 9:30 in the morning. I have been up since 6:30. I think I am going to go crawl back into bed and watch some t.v. I'll take pictures of tonight and share them with you.

Friday, November 7, 2008

It's the small things in life


A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said no.

She asked him if he wanted her,he said no.

She asked him if she left would he cry, he said no.

She turned to leave, he grabbed her arm and said

you're not pretty; you're beautiful.

And I don't want you; I need you.

And I wouldn't cry if you left; I would die
Do you want to know what the best feeling in the world is. Well atleast to me... it is when I am sitting on my bed ,or going through my day at the office, or just doing my normal routine of things and I hear my phone say, "Mom, you got a text message." And to open it up and it be from Jeramy and all it says is "I love you". On my phone instead of having a ringer on it, I have Zane saying mom you got a text message, or Zoei saying mom the phone is ringing. Cuz I am a goober and I love my little munchkins that much. But you know how special I feel when he does that. Here he is in the middle of working his LONG days. Bringing 10 foot solid wood doors up stairs, cutting a million pieces of base per house, and he takes the time out of his day to send a little text message saying I love you. It is all about the small things to me ya know. I think for most women it is. Now don't get me wrong I love all the jewelry he buys me, I love all of the expensive things but in the same breath I love the litte things too. The text messages, the flowers that just show up out of no where. I am so impressed with the man that I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Never in my life have I felt so loved, so secure about my relationship. Yes I went through a lot of questioning Jeramy. Always thinking he was up to something or doing someone...lol. I think I always knew in my heart that he would never do it to me, but all of my years with Kyle, I couldn't get my mind wrapped around that. But now I can, and I know without a doubt that he loves me no matter what. I am so happy with my life and my family. I wouldn't change any of it for the world.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Going down memory lane


Today I go back to my old stomping grounds. I have to go back to Athen, Texas to the court house to see a lawyer. Crazy that I'm going back there! I seriously haven't been down there since 2006. I did not live in Athens, but in order to get there you have to go through what was my little world for a little over five years. Gun Barrel City, Tool, and Mabank Texas. This was my little life while I was with Kyle. I plan on driving by the last house that we lived in. Just to see it. See if it is still there. A little trip down memory lane. Jeramy said that he might go with me. Depends on how much work they have for today. This morning it only looked like they were going to do one house. Hopefully he gets off in time. I told him you get to see where I was living, what use to be my world. I told Mary , Tabitha and Nathan that I would stop by and see them while I was down there. They are Kyle's cousins.. so I guess they would be Zane and Zoei's second cousins???? Anyways I came into their lives when Tabitha was 2 years old and she is now 13 or 14.... CRAZYNESS. My Mary Jane is now 18..that is what makes me feel really old. lol. I am so proud of those kids. They have been through a lot in their little lives and I am so proud that they are all still in school, and not screwed up like I was when I was their age..... Well say a little prayer for me today that I make it down there and back up here. It 's about a 2 hour drive.... My mom is picking up the kids from school today so I don't have to worry about them. I will write later and tell you why I was going down there and what it is all about. Don't want to say anything now until it is all done. It might not be all done today just depends on what steps we have to take.... anyhoooooo wish me luck

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Giving praise

Like this lady in this picture, I am just giving thanks to the Man upstairs. This thing we call life is so crazy, but yet so amaing at the same time. I have been really thinking about these past couple of years for my little family. We have gone through so much, and yet over come it all. With GOD there is nothing that can't happen. I am so thankful for everything the LORD has given me. My children are the best kids anyone could ask for. Yes the get on my nerves, yes they mess up everything in the house, yes they need you for everything, but would I change any of it? Not for one second. I am so thankful that GOD choose me to be their mommy. My future husband Jeramy is the best man any woman could ask for. He truly loves me for me. I don't have to be anyone but April around him, and he loves it. Jeramy goes out of his way to make me feel loved, to make me feel special. He truly loves and looks at Zane and Zoei like they were his own kids. Their relationship is awesome. Seeing him with them makes me love and respect him even more than I already do. No other man in my life besides my father has gone out of his way to be the "man" in the relationship. Working paying the bills making sure his family is alright. I am so in love with that man and so thankful that GOD put us back together. Who would of ever thought when we met way back in Feb of 97 that he would be the man that I would spend the rest of my life with...............
Today we embark on a "new America." I am just praying and trusting that the LORD will guide this country. Things as we all know will work out. GOD is awesome and so am I... so thankful and so blessed!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Computer


You are looking at my new computer!! Yea, I finally got one at home. I feel like a kid in a candy store.lol.... Thanks to Jeramy working all the hours that he works, and him wanting one, we now have one. You really couldn't beat the price. I just feel like we are moving up in the world. We were finally getting on our feet, and then Jeramy's dad moved in with us. That put more financial strain on us. Jeramy's hours starting going down. Then in the past year and a half we have gone through me losing my job and then Jeramy losing his job. This is the first time in a long time that we have been caught up. First time in a long time that we can go out and spend this kind of money and still have our lights and water on...lol. Life is really good right now. There are a lot of things that I want to say but I can't because some people read this. Information that some don't need to know. Well , I'm going to get off of this thing and let Jeramy and the kids see what it is all about. Peace out, GOD is good and so am I!!

Monday, November 3, 2008

My Jeramy


I just put a picture of myself up here because..well I don't really have a good excuse.lol. Let me tell you what the love of my life did this weekend. On Sunday, his only day off we decide to take the kids to Target and get a new leapster game for Zoei and a new DS game for Zane. Well we find the game for Zane really quick. So we all start walking back towards the toys to find the games for Zoei. Jeramy tells me while we are walking back there that he is going to go look at sweaters. So I say okay. Well we find Zoei's game and the kids and I start walking back to the men's department. We didn't see Jeramy so I am thinking we are walking down one isle while he is walking down another. So the kids and I go back to the toy isle and wait for him. He shows up, so then we walk up to the front to pay for the games for the kids. We pay and walk outside. Jeramy puts his arms around me and pulls another Target bag out of his pocket. I say ," baby , what is this?" He didn't say anything. I open it and he had bought me a necklace with a locket that says mom on it!!!! You can put little pictures in it. I'm like BABY!!!! So excited... So he was lying his little booty off when he said he was going to look at sweaters..He really went to the jewelry department and bought me a necklace. I love this man so much!!! Not because he buys me things, but because he goes out of his way to make me feel loved. He goes out of his way to make me feel special and surprise me. He gets just a big of kick out of it as I do. He loves doing things like that for me. I am very truly blessed and I don't know what I would do without him.

Flash from the past


This dude is a flash from my past. Josh...I haven't seen him since I was prego with my daughter, so atleast 5 years ago..maybe longer. How crazy of him to show up at the same bar I was at....It was great seeing him.

About Me

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!