Friday, May 29, 2009

Zane Man

Here is my baby boy(well not baby anymore)

You all know the story about Zane and his ADHD. The school wanted to hold him back last year, but I had a problem with it. The teacher all year long was telling me how good he was doing, and then all of a sudden the last month of school it was like oh he isn't where he needs to be. I was caught off guard. So he went to summer school last summer. Which is a joke by the way, its only 13 days long. We went into this school year thinking either he was going to make up everything and be on track at the end of this year, or we were going to hold him back. When he started 2nd grade this year he was only at a 1st grade level. I got his DRA scores earlier this week. He did progress one full school year, but that means he is only at a 2nd grade level. So instead of letting him go onto the 3rd grade, we are going to hold him back. Technically he made the grades to be able to go to 3rd, but Jeramy and I just think with him being at a 2nd grade level, it would be better for him to stay back and do it again. Zane and I talked about it and he is okay with it. There are 3 other kids in his class that are going to stay behind also, so he will know some people. Anyways, I hope this is the right choice..I believe it is.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Our weekend away

So this is the only picture that I have from our weekend get away:


Yes please notice the burnt skin! Freakin lobster! Okay so we got up Saturday morning and left the house at 8:45. Took the kids over to the rents house. Figured out that we forgot to bring one of the tubes, so we had to go back to the house, stop and get gas then get on the road. We made it to Christy's house around 1:30ish. After getting everything together we finally got to the river around 2:30 or so. We floated the comal river once and then decided to do it again. The whole time I am steadily drinking. Needless to say by the time we finished floating it the second time around, I was trashed!!!!! We were planning on going out to the bar with Christy and a couple of her friends, well that didn't happen. Jeramy and I got to her house, and then I realized exactly trashed I was. So I decided to take a shower and get the river water off of me. I puked twice before I even got into the shower.....yeah I know. Got out of the shower and puked two more times!!! Jeramy I guess thought that I had been in there for way to long so he came to check on me. I don't really remember anything after I puked for the fourth time, but according to Jeramy when he came into the bathroom I was huggin the toilet butt ass naked! He said that he told me I needed to go to bed, and that he was going to go downstairs to get the blankets and pillows and get the bed ready, I said ok.When he came back in the bathroom he told me I needed to get dressed, My response to him was I can't, he said you need to get up, my response to him was can you help me. I'm laughing right now as I type this just picturing it in my mind.... anyways he had to help me get dressed like I was 2 again, and lay my ass down in the bed. I was out like a light! I woke up a couple of times because we were sleeping on the floor in Micah's room, but I was pretty much out until 8 the next morning. Christy was a sweet heart and made us food. Then it was off to hit the river again. The first time down Jeramy and I only drank Gatorade!!! We were like fuck drinking, well him not so much, but the thought of drinking again made me want to hurl! After the first run we decided to float it again before we headed out. That time down I drank a beer...notice A BEER. We left the river around 5:30 and went back to Christy's place. Took a shower and got all of our crap together stopped and got gas and then it was on the road again. We got to the rents house around 10:30 got the kids and then we made it home. It was really fun to get away with the husband. No responsibilities, just us being us!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

so sore!


I am so sore today! So I wrote a few weeks ago about finding a trail and walking it. I have actually been doing really well with keeping it up. Yesterday Jeramy said that he wanted to go on a walk with me. We took off on my little trail. As you all know Jeramy walks so fast. So I was doing my best to keep up with his stride. We figured out that the trail is about 2.5 miles long. After walking that in about 30 minutes, we talked for awhile. I lost 25lbs after leaving my ex husband. Didn't change my eating habbits or anything I think it was just stress that I no longer had to deal with. Anyways, I lost the weight but never toned up anything. Which is my goal now. Espically with Jeramy being in the national guard and working out so hard, I kind of feel like I need to do it with him.So after we were finished talking we went up to walmart and bought two three pound weights. I ended up doing 110 reps I guess is what you would call them on each arm. Different moves trying to work out all of my arm. Basically my arm felt like Jello yesterday afterwards. Woke up today so sore. My legs and such aren't sore I guess they are getting use to walking,but my arms still feel so heavy! I grabbed the weight this morning and did a little work out on them. Needless to say, my arms are going to hurt for awhile.
I told Jeramy that I wanted him to be my "personal trainier". He agreed~ lol He said some dirty things along with it..hahhaah Anyways hope you all have a wonderful day! Only today and tomorrow then off to the river saturday!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Comal River: Here we come

Comal River: Here we come!!!


I am so excited about going to the river this weekend. It has been up in the air wether or not we were going to get to go or not. We had to trade in our car, and pay our bills, and made sure Zane had a good birthday, so it was pretty much last minute. But with GOD all things are possible, so we are going! Our car didn't cost as much money as we thought, our bills got paid, and Zane had a kick ass birthday party, so here we go! I don't think Saturday can get here fast enough. We are only going to stay saturday and sunday, then come back home sunday night. Unless of course we have a little too many cold ones, and decide to drive back monday morning. My sister and her husband, Jessica and cliff are all going. It is going to be some good times with some awesome people!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Jeramy's Birthday Party

Friday night we went out for Jeramy's birthday: Here is a picture of the birthday boy! Sexy man~ Then there is a pic of us two, but he always closes his eyes when the flash fires, so his eyes are always closed, then there is a pic of me, you already know I had to put a pic of myself up here lol!



It was also Carl and Tabitha's 5th anniversary! Congrats to them for making it so long~

Here is a pic of big daddy being a good boy and taking his blow job shot: Love this picture! Proof he does get down on his knees lmfao


The Dj told him,"now you know how she feels", and of course Jeramy had to come back with something so guess what he said: He looked at me and said, So baby is that how you felt earlier today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I blushed!!! But it was funny!


I can't believe that Jeramy is 29 years old. I met him when he was 16 and I was 14, and here we are 26 and 29....crazy how times goes by so fast! I love him more today than I did yesterday and will love him more tomorrow than I do today. He is the best husband and father anyone could ask for. He takes care of us, he is there physically as well as emotionally. He would stop at nothing to make sure that his family is taken care of, and I respect that so much. There is not another man in this world besides my daddy that I have more respect for. Anyways it was a fun weekend, and next weekend is going to be just as much fun. Love ya and peace out bitches!
























































































































































































































































Thursday, May 14, 2009

My first born, my precious son, Zane Nathaniel

Eight years ago today, I had my first born, my son.

Words will never explain what I felt in my heart the first time I held him. This joy came over me, and I was instantly in love. I always knew I would love him, but when you see this little person who has been kicking you and moving around inside you for 9 months, I was blown away to say the least. The first few years were a crazy slap of reality in my face.But all worth it. Here he is when he was two with Zoei.


Precious is all I can say. It makes my heart melt seeing these pictures again: Here he is summer of 2003, so he would of been two years old.

This picture is really small, but it is from 2005. He was 4 years old and was going to pre-k in Kemp Texas.



This is a picture taken at his 5th birthday. May of 2006. We went bowling at spare time lanes. I grew up in that place, we are talking use to sleep on the floor while my parent finished up their games. I have had birthday parties there, so it was crazy taking my son to have his birthday party there. Good times:


July 4th 2008 is when this picture was taken. He has gone from being this little fat chubba wubba, to a tall skinny boy: I think he looks a lot like me in this picture:


This is one of my favorite pictures of him. He is in the tree at Nana's house. Of course he is a boy so where else would he be except in a tree:

And here he is today. He is almost as tall as me. We are talking he is up past my boobs! lol He weights 54 pounds. He is a joy to have in my life.

So my precious Zane man. It is hard to believe that it has already been eight years. At 5:36 this evening will officially be eight years. You are so precious to me. The smile on your face warms my heart. It is so crazy that we can now carry on a conversation, it's crazy to me that you remember the words to songs on the radio, and sing along with them now. It is crazy to me that you read, and do math homework. I find myself thinking where did this time go! Seems just like yesterday you were a little baby boy in my arms who needed me for everything. Now you can do it all on your own. I am so proud to call you my son. You have brought such joy and a purpose to my life. I am so thankful to GOD that he chose me to be your mom. I love you more than words will ever be able to describe. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZANE NATHANIEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

My day today

Today has been a crazy blessed day. This morning around 9:15 I got a call from a lady. I thought it was because I had signed up with there job search company, but come to find out she found my resume on jobing.com. Anyways she asked me if I had an experience with certain computer programs, and most of the ones she called out I had. So she asked me to email her my resume. I did and not even 5 seconds after I hit send she was calling me again. She wanted me to come in at noon today. So I went in and filled out all of her paperwork. She sent my resume over to the company that was looking for someone. She said that she might hear back from them today or tomorrow and that my resume was the first one she sent over there. I left feeling pretty good about it. I get to Pioneer and New York and she is calling me again. The guy had already emailed her back and asked if I would come to an interview at 2 today. While we were on the phone he sent another one saying he didn't realize what time it was so would 9:30 tomorrow be alright. I said of course I will be there. I really really really need this to work out for me. I am hoping with everything happening so fast that GOD has his hand in it, and this is where I need to be. I guess we will see tomorrow. Be praying for me..... going on five months without a job is no bueno!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Drum Roll Please:

Drum Roll Please: This is what we got:

I have to say that I am so glad we didn't end up with the minivan. Jeramy was really set on seeing the minivan, and I was set on not getting one. But I thought we will just get the best out of what is up there. Being it is a tote the note place, you have to choose from what they have up there. So as soon as we pulled in there was the expedition. Jeramy said is that what you were talking about, and I said yes. So we looked in the windows, and found out it had more seats than what I thought it had in there. There are the two front seats, then the back seat,which I thought was all, and just open in the back, but no. It has another seat in the back.lol so you can fit 8 people in there. I asked Jeramy if he wanted to go look at the minivan and he said no. He was happy with that. So we went and talked to Tony and he talked to the owner, and he gave us some cars to choose from. The expedition that we wanted was one of them. We took it for a test drive and fell in love with it. It's a 2000, so it's newer than the firebird. And it has over 40,000 less miles on it. Anyways I am so happy! Oh the best part about it: We were going to have to pay 540 to trade it in. Make a payment and then pay off the repair on the firebird. The tony talked to the owner and got it down to 375, just the repair. Then we went in there today and only had to pay 300!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!! So that means that we can still go to the river! I was really down about not getting to go, but knew that we needed a new car more than we needed to go to the river. So I was alright. But now we got a new car, that jeramy can drive by the way, and are most likly still going to the river! Totally pumped right now...too bad I don't have anywhere to go. Well atleast for another 20 minutes then I get to go pick up the kids from school

Monday, May 11, 2009

Choices

So there are choices to make:I basically have two choices. Even though I don't know for sure if they are going to have these cars tomorrow morning. But I drove by there around 9ish, and these cars were still there. They had a couple more choices that I want to look at. But from what Jeramy and I have talked about I should choose either this one:

Or this one: The only difference from this pic and the one that is up there is the color is black:

Reasoning: We have two children. One,a boy who will be 8 on Thursday and comes up to my boobs. And a little girl who well let's face it is a midget like her mother. Zane has to scrunch up in the back seat when we are all four in the car. He can sit behind me which makes it a little more tolerable. But still isn't fair for him. Jeramy and I were talking and since the inspection sticker is out, went out end of April, why not trade it in now. My sister is going to have Daegan, and so that means that I will be toting three kids around. I'm sure Daegan will either be here or I will be picking him up by the time the kids go to school. Then he will be with me to pick them up from school. So as of December, maybe November, but anyways as of then I will have three kids. When Jeramy gets back in Feb. of 2010 and we find out where GOD is going to take my family. And where he will be working, we are going to try and have a baby. Now we are talking taking four kids around.
Basically the point of my story is we need more room. Why couldn't I just say that in the first place is sad. But whatever, I don't think I am ready to be the "soccer mom." The one up there has 7 seats in it. Plenty of room for what I need,but it's a minivan people! I am only 26....... The expedition only has five seats, but it's not a minivan...hahhahah I know I keep saying that but it's a hard pill to swallow. We will see what happens tomorrow. I might not even come home with either of these cars, might be something totally different. I guess it will just depend on what is the best one out of what is up there. Whatever we think will last longest.... You already know that I will be posting some pics up here tomorrow in whatever we come home in.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

tell me what you think:

So I just cut my bangs... I have bangs again for the first time in years! Don't really know what made me do it. Maybe P.M.S. maybe just the plain fact of being bored.

I defently love 'em, but I want your opinions on them.


Is it a yes, do I keep 'em, or is it a no, and I grow them back out? Regardless of what you say I will probably keep them for awhile. But I still want to know what you think!.



Friday, May 8, 2009

Tired



Why in the world am I so tired this morning?I really don't understand! I went to bed last night around 10:30, I probably didn't fall asleep until 11ish, and I woke up at 6:45 this morning. On top of that I took a 2 hour nap yesterday afternoon. There is no reason for me to be sleepy. Anyways, really don't have anything to say yet, it is only 8:50 in the morning....... I'm sure something will happen today where I will be back bloggin like crazy!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Walking.......


On Monday the kids and I walked down to the park. We found this trail. We just ended up walking to the park and didn't follow it.So on Tuesday I went walking. I followed the trail we found by my house. I really didn't know where it was going to lead, but I was like what the heck. I kept walking and walking, and ended up on Arkansas street! I can't really drive my car down the trail to see how far it is but I guarante you it was atleast a mile and a half. When Jeramy was training for his drills, we drove in the car to measue how far a mile was. It was basically to the stop sign and back on our street.I know for a fact that it was futher than that! I felt good about it and thought maybe I should start doing this every other day. I didn't go Wednesday, so tonight I went. I didn't follow the trail because it was 8:45 when I decided to go. So I just walked down to the park, and followed the trail that goes around the park. That thing too was longer than I thought it was. I didn't realize it went all the way up to the peoples back yards, and there were little hills on it. Nothing big just enough for your legs to feel that you were going up a heel. We will see how long I keep this up. I always start off really good with an exercise thing, weather it be walking or stairs or whatever and then I always fall off. I was smokin, you know what I'm talking about, a lot back then, so I would get lazy. But since that is no longer a part of my life, I have a lot of enery. What better way to burn it off than by walking every other day. Anyways I feel really good right now. I have always heard that when you start exercising you are tired for the first week, but then you start getting a lot more energy from it. We will see.
On another note, I am so stoked about going to the river! We are going on the 23rd and 24th. My sister her husband and her friend Jessica and her man Cliff are going. Ashley was like I don't know if you would be interested but this is what we are doing and when we are going if you want to come. I was like hell yeah! It will be something fun to do with my husband before he leaves for active duty. I will get to hang with my sister and her friends. What more could you ask for! I have to give props to my sister for getting in a bathing suit being 4 months pregnant! I am not pregnant haven't been for over 6 years, and I am still dreading it! lol..... As you get older things are not in the proper places anymore. I'm not even old, I have just had two kids...hahahaha Who cares though. I'm not ashamed of my body or anything don't get me wrong. Tabitha Carl, Shannon and Tony might be going with us. I don't know for sure. Shannon and Tony are trying to save up for their wedding, and tabitha and carl are really tight on money. We are too, but thanks to Jeramy's sister living down there we are going to stay with her. SO the only money we have to come up with is gas, cigs and of course beer for the river. We should be good. Good memories with some of my favorite people in the world!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

What better thing to do on a Wednesday night but:

So we have a case of mistaken idenity:




Here are my boys dressed up as girls.. This is so funny! Jeramy is in my dress and shannon's heels, and zane is in zoei's bathing suit. You know zoei and I got in on the action:



What made us do this...it was a bet. We were sitting at the dinner table and Jeramy came up with the great idea that Zoei had to dress up as a boy. Well she turned it back on us and basically said if they have to do it then we had to do it with them. So Jeramy and I thought we will play paper rock scissors with them, surly we could win. Well it didn't happen like that so we all dressed in different clothes. Made me feel good to get in Jeramy's pants..hahahah just saying that he is so freakin skinny, I was proud to fit into them...hahah good times, good times

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Me against him....round 5 million

This is what has been going on with my ex husband and I. You have to start at the bottom and read up because I copied it from myspace.
you find it sad that I have to make your life hell, I find it sad that you can't take care of zane and zoei like you are suppose to. You calling and talking to them isn't being a father to them. You move around and have different numbers and different people around you. It makes them worry about you. And I am the one who ends up answering all of their questions. You say that I am acting like your mother, and it isn't true. I take care of my kids. You bitch about how her life and her men were more important than you. You bitch about how you never lived in one place more than a couple of months. What do you think you are doing to the kids? You are treating them just like your mom treated you. As far as your father goes, he bounced even after you met him. Just like you bounce all over the place. When you comply with everything the divorce papers say then we will talk. Once you get a place of your own, update the courts where you are, update the courts on your phone number, and get caught up on your child support, then we can talk. You calling to talk to them is not doing what the courts have ordered you to do. You have always taken the easy way out, you have always tried to get by with the littlest amount of work. Well I am not going to allow you to do that when it comes to the kids. You either do it all, everything you are ordered to do, or nothing at all. If you can't do it then it is on you, not me. I am not the reason the kids are going to hate you. You are the reason. THey are going to grow up and ask why were they never important enough for you to stay in one spot, get a real job and a house that they can come to. They are going to see how you live off of everyone just like your mother did. What goes on in my life and what i bitch about is none of your concern. As far as my ring goes, i was bitching about people not knowing what kind of stone it is. Shit it is better than the five dollar ring your aunt had to buy for our wedding. You call me shallow when I am the one who gets up with your kids every morning feeds them and gets them off to school, I am the one who picks them up everyday, I am the one who makes them dinner, I am the one who does homework with them. I am the one who bathes them, I am the one who takes them to their dentist appts, and doctors appts. That is not being shallow, that is being a damn good mother. I know that it is easier for you to make me be the bad person because you are not big enough to admit that you have screwed up. It's okay you can justify it how ever you need to, but it is all on you, not me. I am doing everything that i need to do to make sure these kids turn out to be good people. You do nothing. When Jeramy leaves I will be alright. I am grown now. I don't need him by my side every minute of every day. I have so much respect for him because he is doing this to make mine and the kids lives better. Since you can't stand up and do it for them, he is taking on the role. You should thank him, not talk shit about him. You should say well if I'm not going to do what i need to do for my children , atleast they have a dad in their lives that will do anything and everything to make sure they are taken care of. But no, you are not that big. You have to talk crap about everyone else, instead of looking in the mirror and reflecting on your own life.

----------------- Original Message -----------------From: TATTOOS BY PEANUTTo: April Date: May 5, 2009 11:18 AMSubject: Re: RE: Re:
no actually i find it sad that you have too make my life hell. i dont care what you or anyone eles thinks. you say i havent talked to the kids. its bc you wont let me. why dont you tell the truth instead of trying to mlake everyon think you are this perfect angle. i called and wrote them you refuse me any contack so go fuckk yourself and we will see what happens. just remember you are doing exactcly what my mom did to my dad. fuck u and the horeses that have to drag you around. your so showllow that not even a three days after your wedding you bitched about you ring. you just want to make me miserable bc you are miserable. have fun when jermey leaves. lets see how long you can be alone

----------------- Original Message -----------------From: April Date: May 5, 2009 1:39 PM

does it make you feel good to call me fat? that is how childish you are. i wasn't fat when you were fucking me for 7 years.... when you laid down and made two kids....do you really think that i care what you think about me..that is where you are confused, i don't care what you say or think. done with your little games and 10 year old name calling..... you think all i have been doing is talking, but you are so wrong. you have a rude awakening coming if you think all i have done is talk.
----------------- Original Message -----------------From: TATTOOS BY PEANUTTo: April Date: May 4, 2009 10:00 PMSubject: Re:

talk all you want thats all you have ever done. i will see my kids no mater what your fat ass says or jermey says.

----------------- Original Message -----------------From: April Date: May 4, 2009 3:42 AM

I think it is funny that you are so miserable in your own life that you have to write shit on my blog and check up on what i am doing in my life. Fixed it so you can no longer do that, Fixed my profile so you can no longer see what is going on, and I changed my phone number so you can no longer send me txt messages with a bunch of crap on them. You are miserable and you lie. Go ahead and tell all the lies you want because everyone sees you for who you really are. Why do you think the people in your family want to have something to do with me and not you.... says a lot when a persons family doesn't want to have anything to do with them. You can say i screwed all of these people, i didn't and i know the truth and that is all that matters. You are the one who screwed around on me while we were married.... I have people who I talk to that can testify that you had sex with them while we were married..... So make up all the stories that you want, I know that is the only way you feel like a man. It's okay, i know the truth. The kids will not know your stripper(or as she said the other day use to be stripper) girlfriends baby. You have to take me to court to do anything about it. And since I have spoken to a lawyer and know my rights...that is exactly what you have to do. I am not in contempt of court on anything, I have a lawyer to prove it, so you will be the one answering the questions as to why you have not paid your child support, why you haven't kept the courts up dated with your addresses and phone numbers, you will have to answer as to why you haven't showed up for any of our court dates. Go around and play your little games with everyone else.... the people you surround yourself with are stupid enough to believe your lies. Everyone else laughs at your stupidity..hahhahahhhahaa

According to my ex husband:


I am a fat ass...hahahahaah So I woke up this morning to an email from my ex husband. Let me back up a little bit. Him and Rachel thought it would be cute to talk crap on my blog. So I wrote him an email saying that I thought it was funny that he is so miserable in his own life that he has to check up on me and leave comments about what I am doing. I said that he can say I screwed this person or that person, but everyone knows the truth. Everyone knows that he is the one who cheated on me while we were married. But anyways I said that he can go around telling his lies because everyone that he surrounds himself with are stupid enough to believe his lies. His response to me was that all I have ever done was talk, and that he will do ....forgot what that part was but he finished it off by saying no matter what my fat ass or jeramy says.... Now he is going to be 29 years old this year. Why does he have to resort back to the 10 year old name calling. It just shows you how childish he is. Instead of doing anything about seeing his children, he calls me names. I laugh at him. I wrote him back saying I wasn't fat for the seven years I was with him, or when he laid down and made two kids with me.hahahhah screw him. It just shows what he is all about. Not that I don't already know it just reinforces just how stupid he is. Anyways just wanted to share with you the laugh I got today.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Sunday May 3,2009




It's been awhile since I last blogged. You already know it has been drama filled, fun filled, a little bit of it all. You know who the drama involves. But I fixed that so I don't have to hear his shit anymore. Fun filled, I threw Sarah and Shannon a birthday party this past Friday. I remembered the balloons, the cake, the plates, the confetti, the cards, but I forgot the camera. Of course... so I don't have any pictures to post with this blog. Can't believe I forgot the camera...ugh! Anyways~ it was a blast, and the best damn dj around came out for the special event. I was so happy to see him. Just being around good people like that makes me smile. Jeramy went out with me which always makes the night more fun. He got on the dance floor with me, sang in my ear...I know we are sick with how much we love eachother, but I love it and it's fun! The kiddos are good. With the whole swine flu going around I kept the kids out of school on Thursday and Friday. Then of course they didn't have school, yesterday or today, and then tomorrow is a holiday. I didn't want to get caught up in all of the hype, but I didn't want my kids to get sick, so I figured missing two days wasn't that big of a deal. What else has been going on~ Nothing much. Just cleaning doing laundry and looking for a job. Life is good! Love you all!

About Me

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!