Sunday, June 28, 2009

STUD part 2

Anyways back to what I was saying: We are going to go see him the weekend that he graduates. It will be amazing, but sad all at the same time. I will be so happy to put my arms around him, kiss him, hold him....the kids are going to love seeing daddy again. Zane wants to go into the military when he gets older so it will be awesome for him to see his daddy graduate. I am sure the weekend will come and go so fast. We will get there on Friday and then have to turn around and leave again on Sunday night. Or Monday morning, which ever one. I guess it depends on how fast his turn around is going to be. He will be leaving Kentucky and going to Virginia. We will see him in September and then not again until he comes home for thanksgiving in November. We will get to see him for three days in November, and then he will leave again. Then he will come home again in December for two weeks for Christmas. I am going to fly to see him in Virginia for New Years. Then we won't see him again until he comes home for good in Feb. 2010. Going to a LONG journey, but well worth it in end. Scary to think that three weeks from today will be the last night I get to see him..... :(

p.s. the kids don't want him to go, they say they are going to miss their daddy



Let's just start off by saying having the day off and the kids being at a birthday party and then going to my moms leaves time for us to be ummmm "husband and wife". I freakin love him..... GREATNESS!!!
We are 22 days away from him leaving. I am dreading the day more and more as it gets closer. I didn't work for six months and he pretty much hasn't either. Other than going to his drills, so we have had a lot of time together. But I am so use to him always being here that it is going to be a huge shocker when he leaves. The weekend that he is leaving we are going to spend time with everyone. On Saturday the 18th we are going to have a going away party for him at his sister's house(Tabitha). It's in Balch Springs but people that really care about him and want to see him before he leaves will come. Tabitha said that we could stay there for that night, but Jeramy and I agreed that our last night together we are going to come home and put the kids to bed, and have some time for us. Then Sunday he has to go to the hotel by 4 I believe. Two of the floors are for military people only, but the rest of the hotel anyone can get a room. So I think the kids and I are going to get a hotel room there. He has to check in at 4 but he doesn't have to stay in his room the whole time. So we are going to stay there with him. Then he has to be on the bus at 4am. If we stay there then we can see him when he leaves at 4. It's going to be a sad reality. When he leaves July 20th, I won't see him again until September 19th or so.... depending on his dental work it could push it back a week or so. The kids and I are going to do a road trip to Kentucky when he graduates. That will be such a special day. We will get to see him after 2 months and he will be graduating. Will continue this later: the STUD in my life said that he wants to go get something to eat.....

Work, Work and then more Work

This is how I feel:

Okay, don't agree with #4: I am married or #5: because once again I am married, That is what I have my husband for lol
Anyways, I have been working my butt off. When I started with B&D cleaning there were six girls, and now we are down to four. The clients have not stopped because we have less people, they have grown. So in turn means we are working our butts off. I have been working 12 hour days, for the past couple of weeks. The working 12 hours really doesn't bother me that much, it does wear you down, but add on a case of not being able to sleep at night, and you are worn the f*&k out. I don't know if it is because my mind is thinking of everything that I did for that day, or thinking about how many more days it is before my husband leaves for 9 months.... I really don't know. My body is exhausted but my mind keeps running and running.
Yesterday I started a second job. Basically a part time thing just to build up some money in tha bank . Jeramy is going to leave in July, and his paychecks won't start being direct deposited until August 15 or sometime around there. Well I have to put the kids in daycare when he leaves because I still have to work so that we will have enough money to pay the bills until his checks start coming in. That is the reasoning behind me taking on this second job. People like to say why doesn't Jeramy work, why doesn't he do this or that. It really quite frankly pisses me off. No one is going to hire someone who is leaving in less than a month. We only have one vehicle, and I use it all day long. He stays at home with the kids so that we don't have to pay for daycare. It really doesn't bother me working all this much. There were many times when he worked 15 hour days 7 days a week, and I just sat at home with the kids. It's alright in my book. Besides he is going to leave in 22 days and is going to have to work, and be pushed harder than he ever has in his whole life. Which brings me to my next point:
I really haven't gotten my head around this whole thing. I mean I have but I haven't. I know that it is the reality of our situation, I have known this is coming for over 6 months, but to think we have finally gotten to the point of him blows my mind!!!! I will have to write a blog about my feelings and thoughts about that whole situation later on. For now Peace out, I am going to go enjoy my only day off!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

What the crap?

What is wrong with me? I haven't blogged in FOREVER! I am usually on here at least 3 or 4 times a week. Ever since I took this new job, the last thing I want to do is stay up on the computer. Yes I miss blogging and telling everything that goes on in my lift, I miss your reactions to the things I tell you and should keep to
Let's go back to 2005. That is when I started working for American Tow. It was a desk job because I was routing tow trucks for AAA and the ft worth police department. I worked there for two years. Then Kamal and I had the big blow out, you all know about, and my time of working there had come to an end. Then I started working for my son's Dr. I was the office manager for her office...which was a desk job. Worked there for over a year. Then this last December she said she wanted me to go back to college...blah blah blah...she really just gave my job to her son. So after that I sat on my ass for 6 months, not working. When you go from 0 to 60, it kicks your ass! I went from not working to working 10 hour days cleaning houses and apts. It's hard work, you are bending climbing, constantly on the "go". The first couple of days I thought I was going to die! I hurt in places that I didn't even know you had muscles..hahhahaha It's getting better now, I feel my muscles getting bigger, and my butt smaller...hahhaha making money and getting toned it the shit. Yes it kicks my booty, yes I come home at night and all I want to do is take a shower and go to bed, but it's money in tha bank ya know... I might have a second job starting this weekend. I will tell you about that whenever I have the pleasure of getting back on here.. Peace out bitches hope you have a kick ass day!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Hair Do

I officially have a new hair do:

Thanks to having a sister in law that does hair, I cut it all off!

I was ready for something new

and improved

I do have to say that I am in love with it! This is the shortest it has been in a long time. Maybe with the exception of being a kid. I told Tabitha that I wanted it cut off at my shoulders and really choppy. And this is the end result. She put some more highlights in it. Basically just redid my roots. I feel like I don't have any hair. I had been growing it out because I didn't know if I wanted it long or short for the wedding. So Tabitha would just cut off the ends and put some highlights in it. She did my hair before the wedding and really didn't change anything up. I got married in march, so that is the last time I had anything done to it. Well I got this urge or whatever you want to call it to chop it all off. I asked Jeramy how short I could go and he said that he didn't care. So I was like hell yeah. Not that Jeramy has ever cared what I did with my hair, don't take that the wrong way. I just wanted to hear what he had to say about it. Anyways it worked out perfect because my boss gave me off today because there weren't enough houses to do. And Tabitha didn't have clients booked up, so today was the day. I really like it and Jeramy does too..... Peace out!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009's been so peaceful in my world

When I got home from work today, I made dinner. All of us ate and then I decided to kick the kids off the computer and get on here. Well, there was a message from Kyle on myspace. It said that he is trying to get a full time job, that the kids are his world and he wants me to have them write him on myspace..... seriously! It has been so nice without all the drama from him. He said the kids are his world, really??? Is that why you haven't seen them since March, and you moved to another state? That really adds up doesn't it? I wrote him back and told him I am not budging on anything. He needs to update his stuff with the attorney general, and start doing what he is court ordered to do, and then we will talk. I told him that I am done with that whole situation and when he gets his stuff together then we will talk. The kids don't really ask about him anymore and if I bring him up, all the questions start again about where is he and why he hasn't seen them, and where is he living, what is his phone number.... etc. I'm not going to put myself through all of that again. Once he gets stable then maybe we can talk about it. But until then, I refuse to burden my kids minds with the crazyness he calls life. It's not fair to them. They just need to be kids and worry about what time sponge bob comes on, or how many times they have played chess in one day. Not everything else. Wrong or Right, but I am going what I feel is best for my children. When they get older they will understand why I did it and they will see him for who he is. Sad but true!

Sunday, June 7, 2009


This is how I felt today:

OMG! I never thought I was going to get the laundry done today. And the sad thing about it is it still isn't all done.Since our washing machine and dryer are in storage, I can't keep up with all of the laundry. I use to be able to put a load in here and there and stay pretty well on top of it. But not anymore. In our bathroom we have a built in laundry thingy. I opened it today and you couldn't put another piece of clothes in there. It was ridiculous! So I loaded up two bends of clothes and took them over to my moms house. The kids and I got there around 2, and finally at 7:30 we left. Yes it saved me twenty dollars and a trip to the laundry mat, but it took FOREVER! I still have at least two bends of clothes that need to be washed. I will have to find time during the week to get that done. Darla, my boss, said that we wouldn't or shouldn't be too busy on Tuesday so maybe I can get a couple of loads in then. We will see, and if it doesn't get done, guess what, it will still be there waiting for me to do when I get around to it. lol

Saturday, June 6, 2009

My saturday

We have day two and three under the belt now. On Friday me and another lady went and did two apartments. No one lived in them we just had to get them ready for people to move in. Apartments are a bitch! Well the second one we did wasn't that bad, but the first one, let me tell you. DON'T EVER SMOKE IN YOUR HOUSE!!! The lady was retired and lived there for five years. All she did was sit around and smoke in her house. The yellow stains from her smoking were ridiculous! Everything was yellow, the light fixtures, the tile in the bathroom, the windows even had a yellow tint to them. It was nasty. It took us four hours to do a two bedroom apartment! The second one was only a one bedroom, and the guy (amazingly a guy) kept it so nice. There really wasn't that much to do except clean the refrigerator and the stove. We still had to Windex everything so that it shined really good. It took us about an hour and half. On Friday when we were at the first apt. Darla, My boss, asked me if I wanted to work on Saturday. I said I have been unemployed for six months, I am not turning down any work you give me. She made me promise that I would come back to work on Monday, and warned me it was a house from hell: When I walked in this is what I wanted to do:

I don't think those people clean up at all! They have three dogs, so they have hair pilled up around the base boards. To give them the benefit of whatever, the lady is going through treatment for cancer, but she still works everyday, her husband works 12 hour days, so he doesn't do anything. She does have two teenage kids who don't do a damn thing! I had to fold her daughters clothes that were all over her floor which took me at least 30 minutes. I had to do that just to be able to clean! In two hours and forty-five minutes I got her daughters room clean and the master bedroom and bathroom cleaned..... that is how dirty it was. I have to go back on Monday and do her son's bedroom bathroom the living room and kitchen.They look like nothing compared to what I had to do today! Anyways, made more money today that is all that matters!
It is now 6:45 Saturday night and I am staying home tonight. First time in a LONG time that I haven't done something on the weekend. I did take the kids swimming today after work, but it's the first time that I haven't gone out with my girls drinking. I am going to go make some chili for dinner, and will probably be in bed by 9:30 lol.... peace out!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Day one

This is how I feel right now...exhausted:
My first day of work is done and over with. I got up around 6:30 this morning and got the kids up. I fed them breakfast, and got in the shower. Woke Jeramy up around 7:15, and we left the house at 7:30. Stopped and got gas, then it was off to take the kids to school. They were there at 7:50. Jeramy and I hoped on the freeway and headed to Haltom City. Got to work around 8:25. Went in the office and had our morning meeting. I was suppose to ride with this girl named Kathy, but she never showed up. So at 10 till 10 Monique came and picked me up and it was off to work with her. We got to our first house around 10:30. It was a four bedroom, four bathroom house, two dinning rooms a living room and the kitchen. We cleaned that house and got done in about 3 hours. Stopped on the way to the next house and got lunch and ate it in the car. Got to our next house. This house was four bedrooms, five bathrooms, two dinning rooms, two living rooms, and the kitchen. We walked out of that house at 5:40. Needless to say after not working for 6 months, and the last two jobs I have had were desk jobs(office manager at the Dr's office, and dispatching for AAA and the Ft. worth police department), cleaning houses for almost 7 hours kicked my ass. My butt, legs, arms, back, neck....etc...HURT! I know it will just take some time getting use to, but I know it is going to kick my ass for a couple of weeks. Tabitha has been cleaning houses for two months and she said that it still kicks her ass lol.... I will get my first paycheck tomorrow.... that kicks ass! She doesn't hold back any weeks, and you get paid every Friday. I only made $62.50 for today, but if I would of worked by myself, I would of made 125. Still 62.50 for 6 1/2 hours works out to being a little over 10.40 per hour. So it's all good. I was getting to the point where I would of paid someone to give me a I'm glad to be in the working field again, cleaning houses or not, I don't care. It feels good to go to work and get paid. Anyways it is 9:00 and it is time for me to go to bed. I seriously could of gone to bed at 7:30, but I figured that would of been a little too early lmao!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Job: Check!

I went for a job interview this morning. Well it wasn't really set up that way to begin with. I called the lady on Monday and she told me that she would be in her office about 9:30 Tuesday. So I told her I would be there. I leave the house and got stuck in traffic on 820...surprise I know, but it took me over 45 minutes to get from my house to 820 and denton hwy. By the time I got there, the door was locked and no one was there. I called her and told her that I had gotten stuck in traffic and when I got to the office, it was locked. So she said that she was sorry she missed me, and I said I was sorry for getting stuck in traffic, so we agreed to meet this morning at 9. I told her that I was going to drop the kids off at school, and then I would be there. I got there around 8:45, and the front door was locked again. I am thinking what the crap ya know. I called her and she told me that she was there and to come around to the side door and she would let me in. I went in and filled out the application, and went into her office. Within two minutes of being there she hired me. She asked me if I could pass a background check, and I told her yes. I said I have had tickets and stuff, but not a felony or anything along those lines. She said you are pretty, I need someone right now, so you are hired! I say YAY! out loud..... probably should of kept that to myself, but I was so relieved. We ended up talking for about 45 minutes about everything that goes on inside the houses, what is required of you and the pay. She seems like a really nice lady. She asked me on the application when I could start, so as we were talking she looked at that and said you want to start tomorrow morning! I said well of course! Excited about cleaning other people's pubes, ummmm no, but thankful none the less about having income coming in. We still have the unemployment until the end of this month, but we needed to start working within the next two weeks so that we got paid for the first time before the unemployment ran out. I was really stressin out yesterday. I thought there is no way. No one is hiring! I went to my moms house and got the paper yesterday to look for a job. THERE IS NOTHING IN THERE!!! No carpenter jobs at all for Jeramy, if I wanted to go strip at baby dolls then I could get a job, but seriously there is nothing. I was feeling really discouraged, but not anymore!!!! GOD always comes through and just when you think you are at your wits end, HE comes and makes it all ok again. I am very thankful and very blessed!

Monday, June 1, 2009


This picture really has nothing to do with anything: I just like looking at my husband lol

We are down to one full day and two half days of school! I can't believe it has gone by so fast. Jeramy asked me today what are we going to do with the kids here all day long everyday...I laughed and said it stresses me out just thinking about it. It really doesn't, I am glad to be done with this school year. We have some big plans happening this summer, so it's time to get them rollin! As you all know Jeramy's dad died in 2007. The family has had his ashes since then because none of us really had the time or money to go to the ocean to get rid of them. Well the time has finally come to put him out at sea. We are going the second week in July. Lindy, Jeramy's sister has a time share somewhere in the gulf, so we are going to stay there. Jeramy me and our kids are going as well as his sister Tabitha tom and their kids. It will probably be a LONG drive down there with all of us being in the same car. (Since we have a vehicle now that can hold 8 people, there is no reason to take two cars) But that means three kids, and basically five adults. Melissa is 16 or almost 16 now, so she really isn't a kid anymore. But it should be alright! I'm excited about going. Not really looking forward to getting rid of "B's" ashes, but it's time to let it go. My kids have never seen the ocean so it will be fun for them. I use to go every summer with my family, and those are some of the best memories of my life. I look forward to doing that with our kids. Then Jeramy leaves July 20th..... He actually goes to the hotel on the 19th because he ships out at 4am on the 20th. I'm okay with it now, and I think that is because it is still over a month away, but I know as it gets closer and closer, I am going to start dreading that day. I know that it is just apart of our reality in our lives right now. I will be alright, it's just going to be REALLY strange without him here. Since 2005 when Jeramy and I got back together we have spent two nights away from each other, and that is it! When he is gone it will work out where I see him basically every six weeks or so. I will see him after he is done in Kentucky before he goes to Virginia, then he will come home in November for a couple of days then come home in December for two weeks, and then be back for good in Feb 2010. I think we will still be around here for 3 years after that. If this whole house buying works out then we will for sure be here. I don't know, we will see what GOD has in store for our family. Anyways, going to a job interview tomorrow morning so say a little prayer for me! Peace out!

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!