Monday, September 28, 2009

A day from leaving

So tomorrow the kids and I set out on our journey. It won't be the first time I have been out of Texas because growing up I had the privilege of my parents taking us on vacation every summer. Being that I had my kids so young I have never had the money to take them on an adventure so it will be the first time my kids have been out of Texas. People have asked me if I was scared or nervous about it just being the kids and I. My excitement is through the roof so every time someone asks me, I always say no. I guess if I really think about what I am doing it makes me a little nervous. It's just going to be the kids and I out on open roads for 12 hours, across three states. The thoughts have ran through my mind, what if something happens? What if the car breaks down? What if we get a flat tire? But at the same time I know that whatever happens I can take care of it. I know how to change a tire, if the car breaks down I call budge rental and they come and bring me another car.... I am pretty confident in myself and my abilities to handle different situations. Especially when it comes to making sure my kids are taken care of and are safe.
I am really excited about this journey. It will just be the kids and I. Seeing different places and I can just imagine the kind of conversations we are going to have along the way. It's a time to bond with them and in the end we get to see Jeramy. They are just as excited as I am. They told me today on the way to school that they were going to tell all of their friends that they are leaving tomorrow to go see their daddy. It just makes me smile. My mom and I were talking and we both agreed that this trip, everything that they are going to experience is forever going to be in their memory. They are at the age where they remember things. This trip, seeing their dad graduate from the army, stopping along the way taking pictures of the different state signs...... They will remember it forever! I am so thankful that Jeramy is in their lives and even though he is away right now he is teaching them so much. No matter what you thought your life was going to be, if you want to change it, you can. He is showing them how men take care of their families, and even though it may be hard you man up and do it. Between my dad and Jeramy, Zane is going to know what real men are about, and Zoei is going to know what to look for in a man. She isn't going to settle for just anyone. Now if she is anything like me(which we all know she is) she may join the circus for a little while lol... but in the end she will know and will come back to her roots just like I did.
We have waited for this day for so long. Have been counting down the days hours minutes and seconds and now we are a day away from leaving. We are only 2 days away from seeing Big Daddy..... I guess as I sit and write this I am just so thankful. I am thankful that GOD saw me through all of my crazy days, I am thankful that HE chose me to be Zane and Zoei's mommy because without them I wouldn't be here. I am thankful that HE brought Jeramy and I back together and that I now have the privilege of being married to my soul mate and best friend. I have the best friends who have been there through so much, and I have the WORLD's MOST AMAZING FAMILY! My parents and sister have stood by me through some of the stupidest things anyone could do. They have never judged, never turned their back on me...they have been there through it all.'s a good word for today

Saturday, September 26, 2009

4 days away

Well, Well, Well.... we are down to four days. Yes, four days. Jeramy and I have gotten to talk for the past two days. We have gone over all the things that he wants me to bring with me. Are you ready for this? There are two Cd's that he wants along with a radio. He wants Dr. Pepper's, fudge rounds, Twinkies, honey buns, chocolate and white donuts, and last but not least pecan rolls. He said that if I forget pecan rolls to just turn around and drive back home don't even come and see him. HAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!!! Of course he was joking but I got a big kick out of him saying that! Those are the little things that I miss, his smart ass mouth. He made me smile so big today. He said that he wants the kids to dress up a little bit. He was like not too dressy but like they were going to church. He wants Zoei in a dress and sandals, and Zane in a polo shirt and shorts. He said I want to show my kids off right. I smiled so big. I told Jeramy about when I
was out for Shannon's bachelorette party that Candace told me how much Zoei looked like me and how much Zane looked like Jeramy. She didn't know that Jeramy wasn't their biological father, so she was pretty surprised when I told her that he wasn't but might as well be because he had been around since they were 1 and 3. Jeramy tells me that everyone in his platoon thinks that they are his. He said that everyone that has seen a picture of Zane says,"that boy looks just like you." Jeramy is their dad. He may of not "made" them, but he is the one who has been there day in and day out. Every birthday party, every Christmas, every thanksgiving, every scraped knee, every gun war, every dress up, homework....I could go on and on. Jeramy has never looked at those kids like they weren't his. When we saw each other for the first time after seven years, we laid everything out on the table right then and there. Sitting outside of Lindy's house at 4 in the morning. He said that he had always loved me. I told him that I too had always loved him and wondered where he was and what he was doing. I also told him that I had two kids. That I now was a packaged deal. That if we were going to give our relationship another shot he had to be willing to not only be with me, but be willing to love and care for two kids. From that day on we were inseparable. He has never looked back or wondered what his life would of been like if he had never gotten back with me.
The kids call Jeramy dad. They are so looking forward to seeing him again. So am I...... I think the next few days are going to be so packed with getting everything together, and then the last two days are going to be spent driving, that they are just going to fly by. Tomorrow my mission is to get the Cd's and radio and then all the food he wants. I am going to do some laundry so take with us. Then Monday I am going to pack everything up. Well except for the tooth paste and tooth brushes, shampoo, stuff like that. Tuesday my mom is going to take me to get the rental car at noon. Then I am going to come back home pack everything in the car, go get the kids out of school and then we are off to Little Rock, Arkansas. We are going to stay the night there and then wake up Wednesday and finish the last 7 hours of driving. I know that once we get to Fort Knox time is going to stop. Knowing that he is a mile away is going to kill me. I will get to see him after the orientation on Thursday. I have to take him back at 8pm. Then I will see him at his graduation on Friday and we will have twenty minutes after he graduates. Then he is off to Virginia......I am so thankful that I will get to see him before he leaves......

Thursday, September 24, 2009

5 days away

Okay, so I am ahead of myself by 40 minutes but who cares. I am down to 5, yes F-I-V-E days until I see my husband. He called me tonight and we talked for almost two hours. They got back today from doing "the fog". In civilian words it means being out in the woods for five days. They left Sunday morning and came back tonight around 10 his time. They were bused out there, but then had to do the 9 mile march back. He said it sucked. There were times that it was fun, but it sucked. He said the drill Sargent's were having so much fun. They kept boobie trapping the tent they were sleeping in. They would put trip wire out and attach it to fire crackers, so anytime someone would trip the wire the fire cracker would go off. He said they just would laugh their asses off at them.... I was laughing on the phone while he was telling me, and I am smiling while I am writing this. You know that every time one would go off it would scare the shit out of them. hahahha funny shit. Anyways, we talked about how far he has come just in two months. They did the right of passage ceremony tonight when they got back. Basically they give them their beret's and the drill Sargent's call them soldiers. After they did that they marched through reception. Reception is where you go when you first get there. Basically it is a week of hell. You have five minutes to eat your food, and you do nothing but sit there all day with drill Sargent's yelling at you. He said there were so many guys looking at them while they marched, there were guys that had to stand out in the rain and Jeramy said that he felt like he had come full circle. Knowing that reception is where he started off, sitting right there where those other guys were standing, and now he was officially a soldier. He said it felt so good knowing that he had made it through all of it. There is nothing that can hold him back from graduation. He has done it all. They are going to have a Lt. come in and do an inspection, and they have a march on Saturday, but nothing that is going to keep them from graduation. If they win the competition on Saturday with the march then his platoon gets honor platoon. That is a big deal, so they are all hoping that they get it. Jeramy said tonight that they would all feel so good about themselves because their drill Sargent's have been so cool about shit. Giving them snacks and letting them have their cell phones. They all want to win the honor platoon to show the drill Sargent's that they did a good job. Sgt. Mazar, which is one of Jeramy's drill Sargent's told Jeramy that he was thinking about giving him a letter of recommendation. I forgot what the exact term for it was but I think it was a warrant officer. Basically if that happens then in a little less than two years he will be higher than Sgt. Lopez, his recruiting officer. He will be in the middle, above the non commissioned officers but not as high as the commissioned officers. Means a lot higher pay grade, higher rank. His drill Sargent was asking him if he was going to try to be an Apache helicopter pilot instead of a repairer. If he decided to do that they would put him on a do not deploy list for these six years of his contract. During those six years he would be in classes and training for it. After his got his pilot license he would then sign another 6 year contract. It's all up in the air right now. Shit he is just now graduating BCT, but it's good knowing that there are so many options for him. Basically the sky is the limit when it comes to how far he wants to go. I know I have said this before but I am so PROUD of him. It is an honor to be married to my best friend, it is an honor to have a man who is so willing to take care of his family, it's just an honor to call him my husband. Words will never be able to explain how much I love that man. He is my other half, my heart and soul. I am so freggin stoked to see him. Thought this day would never get here and now it is right around the corner......

Monday, September 21, 2009

9 days away

I am only 9 days away from seeing my baby! Words can't explain how damn happy I am. We started the countdown on July 20th, and here it is Sept. 21st. He has been gone for two months, but now we only have 9 days. He is out in the woods. They left yesterday and won't be back until Wednesday or Thursday. But when they get back all they have left to do is turn in their weapons, and some other things. They are going to practice marching but other than that they are going to be doing a whole lot of nothing. He said that he talked to another guy who got recycled. He said that they got their cell phones the whole last week. So while I am driving up there to see him I will be able to talk to him....We are leaving in 7 days....I have to get everything packed up for the kids and I. I have to go shopping for Jeramy because he wants me to be stocked up on all the little debbie snacks and Dr. pepper. lol He is going to get sick after not eating anything like this and then shoving them down like he plans on. Peace Out!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

6 months ago today

6 Months ago today I said I do to my best friend. Besides the birth of my children, it was the happiest day of my life. Once we knew for sure that Jeramy was going to join the Army National Guard, we decided to get married. The day we figured out we were going to get married, my mom and I went to David's Bridal and got my wedding dress. I literally tried on 5 dresses and the fifth dress was the one I chose. It wasn't even one of the ones that I picked out. The lady that was helping me said I have one more dress that I want you to try on, and it's the one I ended up picking. After the dress was picked out it was on to planning everything else out. We decided to get married at River Legacy Park, no bridesmaids, no groomsmen. Zoei was going to be the flower girl and Zane was going to be the ring bearer. It was just going to be the four of us up there. Jeramy's mom and sister did all of the flowers and cake. I didn't see any of them until the day I got married. Jeramy asked Tom to marry us. So he went online and got ordained. Everything just came together. We had less than a month to pull it off and we did it. There is nothing I would change about my special day. It was amazing!
I got to talk to Jeramy last night and we were talking about how fast 6 months has already passed. We both agreed and were thankful that he will be back in time for our real anniversary. Only by a couple of weeks but at least he will be back. In our first year of marriage he will of been gone for almost 9 months of it. REALLY SUCKS~ but he is out there providing for his family. I have so much respect for him and all that he does for us. Last but not least guess what bitches......I am down to 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

15 days to go until I see my soulmate

With Tony and Shannon's wedding happening this past weekend it really made me miss Jeramy. It made me go back and look at our wedding pictures. Yes it only happened almost 6 months ago, but you forget those little moments. Those smiles captured in pictures that will last a life time. I am so happy that we are down to 15 days. I will get to see that amazing smile again, I will get to feel those arms wrapped around me, and I will get to stare into those eyes. I can't tell you how his smile, his eyes, his arms make me feel so at home. He truly is my soulmate.... This has been a long road without him being here. I have said it before but I will say it again. It has flown by but gone so slow all at the same time. I think we started this journey July 20th and it is now Sept.14th, so in that since it really has flown by but the day to day life seems to take forever. I know that these next two weeks are going to go by so slow, but fast at the same time. Everything is in order, it's just a matter of getting the time to fly by a little faster. I still don't know if I am going to get to take him to Virginia yet. I really hope so because it will mean that I get to spend another 3 days with him. I am going with the mind set that I will only get to see him for 8 hours on Oct. 1 and see him graduate and then he will be on his way. We have already set it up where the first weekend in November, or when he gets his first weekend pass I am going to go up there. Hopefully I can get my mom to watch the kids so that it can just be a weekend just the two of us. But we will see how it all goes. Anyways I can't wait to see my soulmate, my best friend....... only 15 days!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Back to being a baby making maching

Before I go any further this might be TMI for some people. As far as I am concerned there is no such thing, but just in case be warned.
I can officially make babies again! As you all know I went Tuesday the 1st to have the "woman" checkup. As Steph would say "the area" check out. lol Everything was good. They set up a referral for me for another Dr. When I got the letter and saw the date was the 10th I was a little nervous because I was suppose to start my period on the 9th. But thought with all of the emotions going through my mind I wouldn't start. Well sure enough I started yesterday. I tried to call the Dr's
office but they were already closed. I got up this morning and got ready, got the kids ready and we were at my moms house by 7:40. I looked up the directions on her computer not knowing if I would really be able to get it taken out. On the way up there I tried calling a couple of times but I kept on getting a machine. I got up there at 8:15 . I told the lady at the front desk that I was suppose to get my IUD taken out but I started my period yesterday so could they still take it out or did I need to reschedule it. She called I guess the Dr's nurse and she said that it didn't matter. I was thinking hell yeah!!!! So I filled out the paper work, peed in a cup, was weighed, then sent to the waiting room. I only waited there for about 2 minutes and they called me back. As I was walking back there the nerves started hitting me. I had been nervous about getting it taken out. It has been there for 6 years. I got it put in 2 months after Zoei was born. I don't remember it hurting when he put it in, but then again I had just pushed a baby out. Nothing is compared to pushing a baby out. Anyways I walked back with the nurse. She asked me all the usual questions. I told her why I was there and that I was on my period. She took my blood pressure and then told me to wait for the Dr to come in. That is when the nerves really kicked in. I was sitting there bouncing my foot, playing with my rings thinking how is this going to feel, what is it going to be like. I heard a knock at the door and then it opened. It was the nurse again and she was just bringing in the clamp thing they use to grab the IUD strings. She walked out and I saw that thing laying on the counter and I though OH MY LORD!!!! What did I just get myself into. Nerves were in overdrive mode by this point. I heard another knock at the door and this time the Dr walked in. We talked about everything and why I was getting the IUD taken out. I told him that I wanted to get knocked up, well not that way, but you know what I am saying. At first he was going to put me on prenatal vitamins for three months and then have me come back and take it out. I told him that my husband was in active duty and he wasn't going to be back until Feb. Which is the truth, I just left out the part where I am going up to see him in 3 weeks. I told him the anticipation was killing me!! He said that I was thinking it was going to be worse than it was, and I really had nothing to worry about. He said you are going to cough and it is going to be all over with. I was thinking easy for you to say buddy, you aren't getting those clamps put in your va-jj. I got undressed and sat on the table. He walked in with his nurse and told me to lay back. I did and he sits down and starts talking about Jeramy. I am thinking this is a little weird, I have another man down there and he is talking about my husband. hahahhaha so he said cough I did and he said ok it's out. I started laughing and said are you serious! He said yup, I told you it wasn't going to be that bad. It wasn't bad at all. I walked out of that office and thought hell yeah! It's done.... there is nothing else I have to do to get pregnant. Ok well I know there is something else I have to do, but I was thinking about there was nothing else in my way medically that I had to do. I called my mom and she said did you get it taken out. I said HELL YEAH!!!! I am totally stoked about this new journey I am about to go on. My life is totally different than when I had Zane and Zoei. They were not planned at all! I was just having fun, I didn't think I would get pregnant. Don't take that the wrong way, I would never trade them in for anything. I love those babies more than anything in this world. But this time around we are actually planning on having a baby. You watch since I am wanting one and planning on having one, I won't get pregnant for 5 years lol.... we will see. I am just really excited. Wish I could call my husband and tell him all about it. But he is three states away out in the woods shooting guns right now. Hope he gets to call on Sunday so I can talk to him about it. When we talked on Monday I told him I was going to get it done today and that I was nervous about it. He tried to calm me down as much as he could being in Kentucky. Told me that it was going to be alright and if it made me feel any better he had to get in front of a Dr bend over and spread his butt cheeks....hahahahhahahahah mental picture......... Well I am going to the insurance place and getting full coverage on my truck, a must have since we are taking a rental car to Kentucky. As of today I am down to 20 days baby!!! Can't freggin wait!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

21 days... 3 weeks.....

In exactly 3 weeks I will be in Kentucky. Seriously???? Did I just get to say that? I can't explain how freakin stoked I am about that! We are down to the nitty gritty, down to the wire and I just can't wait. I think back to when I said good bye to him July 20 at 5 in the morning. I left there thinking it is going to take FOREVER for 9 weeks to go by. I wondered if I could really do this. Can I really be here by myself with two kids? Doubts, oh I had plenty. Never in my life had I been by myself. Especially for 2 1/2 months.... I am so thankful for this journey though because it has made me a stronger woman, and a better mother. Having to make big decisions all by myself, no input from my husband. Having to deal with the kids 24/7 with no one to share the burden with. Well except for my mom who has always been amazing when it comes to the kids and taking them when I need a break. I just feel so much more confident in myself and my ability to do what I thought was the unthinkable. Did I do it on my own, no way. I have the worlds best family.... seriously couldn't ask for a cooler mom and dad they rock and have always been there no matter what.... watching my sister enter this new world of marriage and carrying her first son has been an amazing experience. She is just glowing and it is so good to see. My girlfriends.... they are just the best. No matter how down I am, there is always a shoulder for me to cry on, or one of them saying lets go to the bar. I leave there with my cheeks hurting from laughing so much. They are the best and I am so glad we have been friends for years! So 21 days away..... I really hope it goes by super fast!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Official Graduation Papers

I got my husband's official graduation papers today! Can't wait to see this sign.

This picture is actually of him shooting.
Anyways they asked Jeramy a couple of weeks ago what his address was while I was on the phone with him. I had read on the computer that I would get an official letter 3 to 4 weeks before the graduation. We figured it would either be the letter or the pictures that he ordered. Well it ended up being the graduation letter. I was so happy when I read that he would be able to leave on family day. We have to attend the family orientation and then after that he can be signed out. He gets to leave until 8pm. I can't tell you how happy I am that I am going to get to see him outside of the base. We still don't know about the weekend, but I am sure we won't know about that until a few days before graduation. I really hope he works it out where I can take him to Virginia. If not I am going to be thankful for at least getting to spend one day with him. Do I want more, yes, but I will be thankful for what I get. The days are counting down to being able to put my arms around him. 22 days to be exact. I truly can not wait. It has been so long. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday made such a difference to us. We talked everyday. I heard his voice before I went to bed and when I woke up in the morning. So happy! Love Love Love that man, and I am so proud to be his wife. Hope these last 22 days goes by so fast.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Took 3 pic and made them into 1

I totally made a make shift picture of my husband: Three different pictures:

He sent me pictures today on his phone. First one was of his chest

Second one was of his abs

The third one was of him in his ACU's. He send me some more....oh come on don't act surprised, he is my husband. Would we be married if we weren't so much alike hahhaha So anyways I laid the pictures out on my bed and put them together. I was looking at pictures of before he went to BCT. Well let me back up. I have this picture of him when we first moved in together back in May of 2005. He is standing in our kitchen with his shorts on and his stomach is just stacked. Plain and simple. Then I looked at a picture of him like a week before he left while he was playing with the kids. Now he had said in a letter that he sent me why didn't I tell him that his stomach was getting big. I didn't notice it and quite frankly it wasn't big, it was just bigger than four years ago. I didn't see it before, but I saw what he was talking about when I looked at the pictures. The picture above really doesn't give him justice. Let's face it I took a picture of a picture. But you can def see the lines in his stomach. But damn if you can do 62 crunches in 2 minutes it's what you get. The picture of his chest, I was like damn it. His shoulders just look so much broader, the muscles around his neck are really starting to stick out.
I was on the phone when I saw the pictures and told him how bad I wish he was here so I could hump on all those muscles...hahahahahhaa I know you are like oh my gosh April Nicole, but you would never expect anything else. We are on the down hill slide of this whole thing. Well the down hill slide to me seeing him. If you think about from beginning to end, we are only almost 2 months into an 8 and 1/2 month ordeal. But we are looking and taking baby steps. I can't wait to see him, I feel at home in his arms and I can't wait to have that feeling again. Peace out!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Will be a baby making machine as of:

As of Thursday September 10th I will be a baby making machine again! I am so stoked about this. Everyone knows how damn fertile I am so I am hoping I get pregnant when I go see Jeramy Oct.1. Being that I want it so bad, I won't get pregnant. I sure as hell will have fun trying though. Jeramy asked me about 3 years ago if I would have his baby. I said of course, but then we went through being okay with just having Zane and Zoei. Jeramy thinks of those babies as his own anyways so it wasn't really about having a kid of his own. We kind of toyed with the idea of having another one off and on but are now serious about it.After Jeramy and I had the conversation about getting my IUD taken out, I have been on the ball. My insurance didn't take effect until September 1st, well I was at the Dr. September 1st having my "womanly"checkup. That was an experience in itself. Maybe because I haven't had sex in 46 sad I know how many days, but anyways or maybe because I hadn't had one done in so long I forgot how uncomfortable it was. I felt like she was trying to touch my tonsils hahahhahah I know TMI, but oh well. So when I went to the Dr I asked her about getting a referral to get my IUD taken out. When I left she told me that I should get getting a letter in the mail in 5 days telling me when my appt. was. I got the letter today, 2 days after being there and I go in Sept. 10 and 8:15. I have done a lot of research about the type of IUD I have. I have the paragard IUD. (the copper one) I know that the other one puts out hormones in your body so I automatically thought the one I had did the same. I was wrong. From what I have read your body produces a little bit of copper, and the IUD that I have just produces a little more. So once it is out of my body, I don't have for my body to get rid of the hormones, I can get pregnant as soon as I want to. I got pregnant with my son at 17 had him at 18 then got pregnant with my daughter when I was 19 and had her at 20. Then I got the IUD put I think 6 or 8 weeks after that. THANK GOD FOR THE IUD!! Lord knows I would of had 22 kids by now. I know not possible but whatever you know what I mean. When I use to work at American Tow there was a girl there named Michelle. She had an IUD, don't know which one, but it took her a year to get pregnant after she got it taken out. I have read a lot of post online and it basically goes from women getting pregnant the next month to people still trying years later. I am trying to wrap my mind around it might take a long time. I really hope not though. My mom and I went shopping for my sister yesterday. Shopping for a little boy, and seeing everything the bedding the bottles the clothes the little cute shoes the boppy pillow.....I went home wishing I was pregnant right now. I get to see my hubby Oct.1st.... I really hope it happens then but if not I will damn sure have fun trying!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

mixed feelings

So I got this picture from my ex husband grandmothers page. I really shouldn't of looked at them, but you all know me....I couldn't stand it. When I was pregnant with my son at first we were going to name him Anthony Williamson, after Kyle's dad. Well I went to church with my mom and we ended up going with Zane, so thankful that I did. But anyways Kyle named his new son Kyle Anthony Williamson. I have such mixed feelings about this. Now I know that they didn't plan on her getting just happened, Totally get that. But when I saw this picture of him holding his new son, I thought wow. He hasn't seen or talked to Zane and Zoei in over seven months, he hasn't paid his child support in over a year and a half. Now part of the reason for him not being able to talk to them is because I changed my phone number. Him and Rachel would call or text and talk crap to me and get me going. So I changed my number so I wouldn't have to deal with that. Now the flip side of that is we have a case with the attorney general. I called them and gave them my new number and told Kyle that if he really wanted to do right by the kids and start doing what he was court ordered to do then he could call them and give them all of his information and get my number from them. Well this was in March, it is now September. I felt like he either had to do it all, be apart of everything in their life do everything that he was suppose to do, or he didn't need to be apart of anything. Everything is on him. I did everything that I was suppose to do, and he hasn't done anything. But anyways my kids are going to grow up not knowing this new baby. They are going to someday, if it even happens, but someday meet this guy that is suppose to be their brother and know nothing about. They are going to question why was this new baby more important than they are. Why have they been around for 8 and 6 years and he does nothing for them. I hate that they are going to have to go through those emotions. I feel so sorry for that baby. I really really really hope that Kyle has gotten his shit together enough to take care of this new baby boy. I think my kids are taken care of. They have everything they need and want and they have a constant father in their lives. They are going to be taken care of no matter what. Not only will I make sure that happens, but Jeramy would never not take care of them. He loves them like they were his own kids. He looks at them like they are his kids. He has been in their lives since they were 1 and 3, so there is a bond that can never be broken. I kind of feel like Kyle needs to do everything to take care of this new baby, whatever he has to do to provide for him and make sure he turns out to be a wonderful man, and if it means he does nothing for Zane and Zoei then so be it. They have a dad in their life ya know. They call Jeramy dad and their biological father Kyle...... that says a lot right there. Anyways just had to get some of this out. I am just going to pray for that new baby boy. I really hope that he has a good life....
This is my ex husband Kyle, and his new son Kyle

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!