Monday, October 26, 2009

He is just so good

Jeramy is my rock. This man can say things to me that just make sense. This man can calm me down even four states away. Jeramy is truly my best friend. We talked today on the phone and he just knew how to say everything that I needed to hear. I love ol'man I love him. I am truly thankful that he is in my life.
Today was his last day of classes. He took a test on Friday but really thought he did bad on it. He thought he failed. Well he found out today that he got an 90 on it!!! The class part of AIT is only 14 days long. Within that 14 days you have three tests. If you fail any of them you get re classed. He passed all of them so now it is on to the hanger. The hanger last four months. It's a lot of hands on stuff, actually working on the Apache's. I am so proud of him. When he sets his mind to something, he does it. No screwing around, no excuses for anything, he goes balls to the wall and does it. His ambition and drive is just so sexy! He found out his graduation date today and it is Feb. 24, my mom's birthday. They said it usually takes one day to do the out processing so he should be home the night of the 25th, or the morning of the 26th. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! There is light at the end of the tunnel! Anyways I am going to bed. Life is good and I am so proud of the man that I get to call my husband!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

it just sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy it's been a long time,
and I can't get you off my mind,
and nobody knows but me.
I stare at your photograph
still sleep in the shirt you left,
and nobody knows but me.
Everyday I wipe my tears away,
so many nights I've prayed for you to stay.
My friends think I'm moving on,
but the truth is I'm not that strong,
and nobody knows but me.
I've kept all the words you've said,
in a box underneath my bed,
and nobody knows but me.
There I was at the bus stop beggin' you just to stay
Can we work this out, baby can we just work this out
A dust tail from a greyhound headed for the east coast
As I watch you leave I find it hard to breathe
No this ain't how it was suppose to be,
If your out chasin' all your dreams
Tell me where does that leave me
The preacher stopped by the house last Tuesday
Asked if I was fine
We sat and talked awhile
He tried to make me smile
It's three am and I can't sleep at all
I wonder where you are tonight and do I ever cross your mind
I can't tell you how much those songs speak to my heart right now. I really don't know what is wrong with me. Life is so good right now. Ever since Jeramy left again I have been in this funk. I put on this smile, cut up like I would normally would, go through the motions of the day, but deep inside I feel so alone. Is there any reason for me too, not really. My kids are with me everyday, my family is to die for and pretty much talk to them everyday. There is nothing wrong which makes it so hard to figure out why I feel like I do. I think it is to the point where it is making me physically ill. For two weeks now I have been in this funk where I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to do anything. I am content with laying in my bed all day long doing nothing. Every little thing pisses me off, or makes me want to cry. Right now there is no happy medium, it is either one extreme or another. I haven't been able to sleep since Jeramy left....well without the help of wine or beer. That just pisses me off. I lay in bed and toss and turn, but can't turn my mind off. It goes all over the place, thinking of such crazy things which in turn makes me have nightmares. So when I do finally fall asleep I wake up in a panic thinking where in the hell did that come from. It just sucks. I know I have said it before but I really didn't think Jeramy coming home and then leaving again would fuck me up so much. It's like he left for BCT all over again, but this time alot worse. I didn't sleep when he left for the first time, but after a week or so I was alright. I got into a routine and yes it was hard, but I did it. This time around, he has been gone for almost two weeks, and I am still fucked! It pisses me off at myself that I am so dependant on another person that I can't get my shit together. I have been doing this since July, you would think I would be alright. I would be use to him being gone. But that isn't that the case at all! I don't know.... I don't know what to do, there is no one else that I know that is in the same position I am in so no one knows what I am talking about when I bring it up. Everyone that I know has their husband with them, and when I say something about it 9 times out of 10 they say I wish someone would take my husband away.... That is the last thing I want to hear.... I guarantee once they were in the position I am in all they would want is their husband by their side. It hard, no and's if's or but's about it....It's down right fucking HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe it's harder on me than most people. Maybe it's because for once in my life everything is alright. No stress, no worries, nothing crazy going on and the one person I want to share it with is four states away. Jeramy and I talked about this today, it's so bittersweet for both of us. Me, I am so thankful that for once there is no stress in my life, everything is in the place it should be, but my husband isn't here to share it with me. But the reason everything is so good is because he is off bustin his balls taking care of his family. He told me today that the reason he has been able to do the shit he has to do is because he knows that the kids and I are just fine. He knows that everything is taken care of because he is doing what he is doing. It's so bittersweet....there is no other way to explain it.
We had another heart to heart today...... He finally got his black pass which means he has to form up for the 7am formation but then after that he is free to do whatever the fuck he wants to. He can leave base, go wherever he wants. So yesterday him and another guy went bowling on base. They were drinking and having a good time. Then they went to Arby's and ate and met up with some other guys. All in all there were 11 of them. They decided to go to a bar and drink. When he told me that I felt this jealousy come up inside of me. I didn't say anything about it while we were on the phone because I knew that if I did it would ruin his night. So we got off the phone and before we did he told me that him and Green( his battle buddy) were going to go back to base before they locked the doors. He said I will call you when I get back. Well I didn't get a call from him last night, so of course my mind starts wondering. Going to every different situation that could of happened. I have to say that I hate that my ex husband made me that way. I trusted him with everything, we were married had two kids living under the same roof and he fucked around on me every chance that he got. So my trust in people is very little...ok let me be really honest I don't' trust a damn person. No one....because my ex husband would lie straight in my eyes so it made me build this guard up where no matter who it is or what the situation is , I don't believe anyone,except for Jeramy. Sad, yes I know but I can't help it. You would think him being out of my life and Jeramy and I being together for over four and a half years I would be over it, but I have to admit that I am not. So anyways when Jeramy called me this morning I was beside myself. He told me that they went to a bar and then afterwards got a hotel room and partied there. He stayed up all night drinking and having a good time. He was like I know something is wrong with you so tell me. I tried to be sly and not say anything and tell him that nothing was wrong. But with us having the kind of relationship we have he can call me out on my bullshit four states away lol. I told him that I was so jealous. He said why because I went out drinking and you weren't here. I told him no, I was jealous because he would never do that shit with me. I said I would beg you, have it all set up where my mom would watch the kids, and you would still tell me no. I said no matter what I did you would never do it. Yes he did it a couple of times but that was because it was someone's birthday or something like that. He told me that it will be different when he gets back home. He said that he admits to getting comfortable with where we were in our relationship and it will never happen again. He said even when I come back and we get back in the swing of things I am going to enjoy every minute I have with you. He said even though I will be home I know that I can get deployed at anytime and will have to go a at least a year without you. He said I know that it is something that I am going to have to prove to you, but I am willing to do it. It made me feel better. I told him it's not a trust thing. Even though I don't trust anyone else I trust Jeramy. Never once in our relationship has he given me a reason not to trust him. It's all a jealousy thing. He understood that and told me it would change......... I believe him. Anyways a bottle of wine later, I need to go to sleep.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Daegan Michael Branecky

Tyler and Ashley Branecky welcomed their precious gift from GOD:

Mr. Daegan Michael Branecky

Nine months of planning, getting ready, going through every emotion you can possibly go through....and he is finally here. Daegan came on his own terms though. I started to think that Ashley decided she didn't want to have him, and wanted to see every nurse on rotation! Hope she doesn't mind me telling all of this.....But here is my version of how it all happened.
Thursday night they couldn't sleep. The anticipation of what was going to happen in their lives was just too much so Ashley and Tyler were up at 2am. They got to the hospital and were in their room by 7am. The dr's finally got the everything going between 8 and 8:30 I believe. The contractions started coming. Nothing major....just the ones where your stomach gets tight and then lets loose, like menstrual cramps. The nurses kept turning the meds up and down. Here contractions would start coming, but they were too close together, so they would lower it back down. They didn't want Daegan's heart rate to drop. We were all having a party in her room. Cutting up, bull shittin..... The dr came in about 1:15 so we left the room. She broke Ashley's water around 1:30, and that is when the world as she new it went all to hell! lol The contractions started coming hard, so she went ahead and got her epidural. I got to see her for about 15 minutes after that, then I had to leave and pick up the kids from school. The kids and I hung out at the house for awhile and ate dinner. I talked to my mom around 7:30 and she said that Ashley was at a 6 and 100%. I got the kids and we headed up to the hospital thinking that the last part of it wouldn't take as long as the first part. Shit by then it had been 11 hours.... Zane Zoei and I got up to the hospital around 8. Ashley didn't want anyone else in the room by that point because she was hurting. So the family sat out in the waiting room. The kids were playing and the adults were talking. Tyler came out and said that Ashley was at an 8. So all of us thought ok, maybe in the next hour or so he will come. Nope..... Finally at 10:45 I left and took the kids home. Zane had a field trip so he didn't want to miss school. We got home and they went to bed. I finally fell asleep around 1ish. Tyler sent me a text message at 3:45 saying he was finally here!
After almost 20 hours of labor, Daegan finally made his grand entrance. He was born at 2:37am 7lbs and 20 1/2 inches long. I went up to the hospital Friday morning to see him. I was so excited and couldn't wait to get my hands on him. He is just precious! I told Ashley while I was holding him that you forget how little they are. Zane is 8 and is almost as tall as I am, seriously I am maybe a foot taller than him. Zoei is 6, she is still a little munchkin but so full of life and talkative. Then here is this little baby boy. Weighs only 7lbs, tiny tiny tiny..... I took the kids up there to see him yesterday. They were just so amazed by him. Zoei started crying because she was so happy and excited. Zane was just in awe of this little man. Every move that he made, every facial expression....they were smiling and laughing at him. It was priceless to see my kids with my sisters kid. Honestly never thought this day was going to come, but it is here now. God is so good, and blesses us so much.
Tyler just called me to tell me how Ashley and Daegan were doing and that they are probably going home today. I know they are so ready to get home and be in their own bed. I told Tyler thank you for taking care of my sister. He told me that he remembers back in Jan. we were all at G's and I took him outside and told him that I just wanted him to love and take care of my sister, I wanted him to be the man that I knew he was. Tyler said this morning, I hope that I have done that! I told him that he has most def stepped up to the plate and made my sister truly happy. That is all that matters to me. As long as my sister is taken care of and is loved the way she deserves to be loved....then life is good!
I am so proud of Tyler and Ashley. They just experienced something that will change their lives forever. Love them and LOVE my nephew...... Life is awesome!!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

My sister is having her baby!!!!!!!!!!

So today my sister enters the world of mother hood. Words can't describe how excited I am for her. Being Ashley is my sister I have had the privilege of watching her grow up. She has always been the "good daughter." I was the hellion and she was the good one. Watching her grow into this woman has been amazing. She has always known what she wanted out of life and has never let anything or anyone hold her back from achieving her goals. Ashley found the love of her life when she was only 17 years old. They went their own ways because obviously in God's eyes the timing wasn't right. They got back together and it has been a whirl wind since then. I don't think Ashley's feet have hit the ground since. They were married in April of this year and today, October 22,2009 will welcome their precious gift from God, Daegan Michael Branecky. YAY!!!! I am on cloud 9 with her! I am going to get ready and head up to the hospital. I know that he won't be here until this evening, but I can't wait to get in the mix of it all!!! Say a little prayer for her today.....this is going to be a day she will never forget on many levels!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Leaving on that mid night train to Georgia....ok texas but you know the song!

I bought Jeramy's plane ticket today! We really didn't know how we were going to swing this. When he went back to Fort Eustis we decided that we would buy his plane ticket for Thanksgiving on the 1st. We could of done it on the 15th but decided to wait. Well he was told that in order to get a pass for thanksgiving you had to have your plane ticket bought and all the paperwork filled out by the 30th of this month. So I was kind of stressing. Not that we didn't have the money to do it, it was just going to make things tighter than they have been in awhile. I started calling around to airlines trying to find the cheapest ticket I could. None of the airlines had any military tickets left. I looked on cheap tickets and they had some for a lot cheaper. The airlines were quoting me 1000-1500 round trip. When I looked on cheap tickets it said their tickets were non-refundable. Well up to the day of Jeramy can get his pass taken away so getting a non-refundable ticket would be stupid. He told me that airtran was another airline that flew out of Newport Va. The airport there is really small, there is only one gate lol...nothing like DFW. Anyways I looked them up online while I was on the phone with Jeramy. We found him a ticket that was only 593 dollars. There ticket isn't refundable either but if something comes up then you can change your ticket for another date. Yes there is a processing fee but whatever. So it's done....the ticket is bought! I am really excited about him coming home again. I know that when he leaves it is going to put me in another funk, but at least when he leaves from thanksgiving it will less than three weeks until I see him again. So I am excited....only 38 more days to go until I see his sexy ass again!

Friday, October 16, 2009

I have decided that they are the biggest bunch of idiots

I have officially decided that people from Rent A Center are the biggest idiots in the world. Back in 2007 when I was working for American Tow, Jeramy was going to start working up there part time. He was still doing construction then, and you know how that work goes. It is never steady. So I asked Ken if he would let Jeramy work up there doing calls at night. Well he was training one Saturday. He decided to surprise me with a washing machine and dryer. Never in my life had I owned one. I had always gone to the laundry mat or my parents. Well him and another driver went to Rent a Center in Bedford and set up to have the washer and dryer delivered to my house. We had that for awhile, never had any problems with the people in Bedford. Then Jeramy decides to get a new bedroom set for me for my birthday. We picked out the one that we wanted and decided since we lived in Arlington we would switch our account from the one in bedford to the one in Mansfield. They were the only store that had the one we wanted. Holy crap it has been a night mare since we switched it. At least once every six weeks they call saying they haven't gotten my payment. Which is so stupid because I pay them, but they are idiots and don't speak to one another or update their computer, so they call thinking they are right. Me being the nice person I am, cuss them out every time. lol About a year ago they called and said that we never paid them. That time I had given them a money order and put it under the door. Now before I did that I told them I couldn't be there before they closed. I was working and going to school at night then. The guy told me to put it under the door. Well the manager had picked it up and not told anyone. After I went up there and showed them the money order, they still didn't believe me. They finally talked to the manager and he told them that he had picked it up.....duh! So I get a call this morning from them saying that I hadn't paid them. So I told them that actually I put a money order for 150 dollars under the door and was paid up through the middle of next month. He put me on hold a couple of times and kept coming back saying that they didn't get it, by the third time of him putting me on hold I was pissed off. He got back on the phone and told me that I needed to call and make sure the money order had not been cashed and in the mean time I needed to bring them more money. I went off. Poor guy is just doing his job but damn it. I told them that I wasn't doing a damn thing that it was their problem. I did my part by putting the money order under the door just like I had done a million times before. It's their problem if they lost it, I told him to wait a couple of hours and someone will say oh yeah I got it.... Fuckin idiots....stupid shit like this aggravates me to my core. You would think they would be able to speak to one another or at least update their computers, but no , they automatically think I am bullshitting them....I'm sure I will eventually get a call saying they found it. I will be so glad when I don't have to deal with them anymore. The washer and dryer are paid off, it's just the bedroom set we have to pay off now....UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Four simple words

So yesterday was really hard for me. Ever since Jeramy left again I have been in a funk. Constantly thinking about him, wishing he was here, wondering if him being away was the right choice for our family. Every kind of emotion you could think of has been running through my head. Jeramy called me yesterday and I didn't say anything about it. The last thing I want is him worrying about me ya know. I want him focused on his classes and what he needs to do so that he can come home on time. I sent him a text message saying how I felt later on. Told him what was running around in my mind. He woke me up with a text message at 1 this morning. All it said was "I love you baby". I just had the calmest feeling come over me. Those four little words made such a difference in my mind set. Does he say he loves me all the time, yes, does he say all of our little "things" we say to each other, all the time. So why would it have such an effect on me him sending that text message? I really don't have the answer to that, but I am so thankful that he sent it. I haven't gotten to talk to him today. Hopefully he is trying to catch up on some of his sleep during his personal time. But when he does call I am most def going to tell him thank you. He will probably wonder why it had such an effect on me.....I don't have the answer to that, but I want him to know. I can't tell you how much he can calm me down. No matter what is going on in my life, or what crazy things my mind can think of, he always knows what to do. There has never been another human being that has been able to do that to me. Any other person tries to calm me down, or tell me what I should do usually ends up in an argument, but not with him. Maybe it's because I respect his opinion? Maybe it's because I know that he will never do me wrong? Shit I don't know.............. I am just thankful for him being in my life. Really don't know how I would make it without my other half.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

in a funk

Man 'ol man, I am in such a funk. As you all know Jeramy got to come home for four days. Now that he is gone again, I really don't know what to do with myself. When the kids and I went to Fort Knox it was hard saying good bye to him.When he left Fort Knox going to Fort Eustis we didn't think we would see each other until Thanksgiving. But I have to say that it wasn't as bad as saying good bye this time. I think it's because he wasn't home. I knew going up there that he had to stay there. When we found out that they were going to let him come home for four days, I was beside myself. I thought hell yeah, I get to have him HERE! Words will never be able to describe how good it felt having him home. Watching him pace the floors listening to music, hearing him talk to the kids, being in the kitchen and being able to look across the bar and see him there, being able to lay in bed and watch TV with him, falling asleep in his arms..... When you have someone here all the time you forget how much you enjoy that shit. We enjoyed every minute we had together while he was here. When he left on Monday, I got in the car with the kids thinking that went by way too fast. Wishing he could of stayed a few more days, but after those couple of days I would of wanted more, then will never be enough. Not until Feb. when he is home for good. We had a long conversation on Sunday. Hearing him tell me everything that he realized while he has been gone just tore at my heart. We have had phone conversations and written letters but to have a face to face conversation just broke me down. I cried and for the first time in over two months I got to cry in his arms. He just held me and told me that it was going to be alright.
I can't explain this funk that I am in right now. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just want to be alone. I put on a smile for everyone and go through the motions but inside I just want my husband here. There is not another person on this planet that can calm me, make me laugh, make me smile from the inside out like he does. Those four days were just a tease and has left me wanting so much more. I know that the only thing I can do is keep going through the motions and counting down the days until I see him again. As of today we are down to 41 days. I have to remind myself that there will never be a time as long as BCT. And between now and Thanksgiving will be the longest time.......

Monday, October 12, 2009

He came and left all too quickly

Well, the husband made it home. They let them go at 1 Friday morning, so him and some guys got a cab and headed to the airport. His flight didn't leave until 10 but he was just planning on crashing out at the airport. When he got there they asked him if he wanted an earlier flight and of course he said hell yeah. So he was on his first plane at 5:45 Friday morning. He had to fly into Atlanta, had maybe a 40 minute lay over and then he was on his way to DFW. His plane got here at 10am. I was so excited to see him even though it had only been a week since the kids and I went to Fort Knox. When we got home he took a bath, lord knows he has only had showers for the past two and a half months. He passed out around 11:30 and woke up around 5ish. We all went to the grocery store came home and made some shrimp and crab cakes. After we ate we took the kids over to my moms house. Tabitha and Carl came and picked us up and we went to the haunted house out in Terrell. It was alright... the shows were lame, and really the only haunted house that was good was the last one. Since Jeramy is military he got in free, so it only cost us 20 for me to get in. It defiantly wouldn't of been worth 40. Anyways we came home and crashed out. Got up Saturday morning and did a whole lot of nothing all day long. He got on the PS3 for about an hour just because he hadn't played in so long. We had a party at the house Saturday night. (thanks for those of you who made it a point to come) It's about putting someone else before yourself....but I won't get all into that. Everyone left by 2 or so. The kids feel asleep in our bed, so Jeramy being the good daddy that he is he put them in their bed, then we went to sleep. Sunday we did a whole lot of nothing again. It felt so good to lay in our bed and watch TV, to be able to lay in his arms was amazing! We all do this, get comfortable in our relationships and forget how good the simple things in life feel. Sunday night we went to dinner with my parents, my sister and her husband. It was fun having him here in the mix of everything. We had a long talk Sunday night that made me cry.... I so was not looking forward to saying good bye to him again today, and hearing him say how much he misses being here with us didn't make it any easier. We got up today and talked all morning long. Left here 11ish because his flight was suppose to leave at 1:10. When we got up there they told us that his flight had been pushed back to 2:10 so we went to Jack in the Box and ate. It was really hard saying good bye to him again today. Well, I guess it was and it wasn't. It wasn't the first time we had to do it, but at the same time I really wanted him to stay here. I truly miss him.... I think him being here in our house made me realize just how much I miss him being here. Anyways we said good bye and before he left he told me I could start my next countdown lol...he knows me so well. He gets to come back home for Thanksgiving, so 43 days to go.

Friday, October 9, 2009

14 hours till he is here

This sexy husband of mine will be here in 14 hours! We had talked earlier in the day for about an hour. He said that he was going to call me when he got to the airport or when he was about to get on his flight. I told him to call me whenever. I watched TV tonight until about 11:35 and decided to turn it off and try to go to sleep. Well I guess I passed out because I woke up to a phone call from Jeramy at 12:10. He was waiting with the other guys to catch a cab to the airport. I really can't believe that they would release them at 1 in the morning..... seems like they would wait until wake up at 5. But anyways, he said he is so stoked about coming home that he had to call me. LOVE THAT! He said that he had the hardest time staying awake in class tonight, but as soon as they let them go, he got this burst of energy. He only got to sleep 2 hours on Tuesday night because he had a PT test at 4 Wednesday morning, and then last night he only slept for 2 hours...and tonight he isn't sleeping at all because they are going to the airport. Hopefully he in the UXO in the airport they have a couch or like in DFW they have a bed, so that he can catch a couple of hours of shut eye. I know he will close his eyes on the airplane but how well can you really sleep sitting up...... anyways I have a feeling I am going to be up for a long time. You know how you fall asleep for 30 minutes, and get woken up you can't go back to's like a little power nap!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

exciting news

This sexy husband of mine gets to come home on Friday! I am so excited about him sleeping in the bed with me for three nights. He hasn't been home since July, and besides the kids sleeping with me a couple of times I have slept by myself the whole time. Yesterday was just a day of good news. He found out on Saturday that since it was a holiday, he could get a four day pass. He had to fill out all the paperwork and get it turned in correctly and on time. So on my way back to Texas on Saturday I bought him a plane ticket. I had Delta fax it over to where he was. Jeramy got one of the senior platoon leaders to help him fill out all the paperwork. He had it all turned in by Sunday and then yesterday the First Sgt. approved it. SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT! Another thing that was up in the air was his classes. When he got to reception they told him there were so many guys coming in that there wasn't going to be enough room in the class for all of them. He spoke to a few guys and one of them had to wait 2 weeks, another had to wait 7 weeks. So it was really up in the air. We both are counting on him being back for good in Feb. that way he will be here for our one year anniversary. I prayed really hard about it and so did Jeramy. He found out yesterday that he got into the class! I say thank you GOD for that! Yesterday was just amazing, he got classed and he got the pass approved! So we are having a party at my house Saturday night..... celebrating Jeramy and all that he has done. Proud of him I am! Jeramy now gets to come home this next weekend, either he is coming home or the kids and I are going to see him for Thanksgiving, he gets 10 days for Christmas that he will be home for. I am going up there in Jan. for my birthday, and he comes home for good in Feb......... Life is Oh So Good!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Sept. 29- Oct. 3,2009

The kids and I started counting down the days when Jeramy left. In July I never thought this day would get here. Slowly the day finally came when we got to leave. I took the kids to school Tuesday, the 29Th. I went and got some of the last minute things that Jeramy wanted and then my mom took me to pick up the rental car at noon. I came back to the house and packed up the car then went to the school and picked up the kids. They were so excited about leaving, I was too! We got on the freeway and then I thought to myself I should stop and get them something to eat so we can just start going. So we got something to eat and then we were off to Little Rock Arkansas. Since it is over a 12 hour drive to Fort Knox,Ky Jeramy and I agreed that on Tuesday we would stop in Little Rock. We spent the night there and was back on the road by 9 Wednesday morning. We stopped a few times to get gas and to go through the drive thru and get something to eat. We finally got to Fort Knox about 5:45 Wednesday night. The drive up there was amazing. The trees were changing colors and I swear they were up to the heavens, they were so tall. I almost peed all over myself when I saw the Fort Knox sign. Wednesday night was a whirlwind of emotions. I couldn't believe that I was less that a mile away from him, I couldn't believe that after all the counting down and planning we were actually there. Thursday morning I woke up before the alarm went off. I took a shower, put my make-up on, then I woke up the kids. I got them ready and then I finished getting ready. We were out the door by 8am. I drove to the base and that is when the adventure started. Jeramy had given me directions on where I needed to go. Fort Knox is over three counties big, so it is easy to get lost. I pull up to the gate and the guard tells me to pull over to the side that they were sending everyone in a convoy. So the guy directing traffic was a dip shit. He asked me if I was there for the Charlie company graduation, I told him no I was there for the Golf Company family day. He had no idea what I was talking about. He came over and looked at my paper that said Golf Company family day and where to go. He paid no attention to that and just told me to follow this guy. So I start following him, well the guy I am following doesn't understand the directions the guy gave him so we go on this 25 minute adventure around Fort Knox. He finally stops and asks where he needed to go and low and behold we end up at the graduation field. I am thinking this asshole.... I told him I wasn't there for the graduation. I stop and ask one of the guys directing traffic and he tells me what I already know that I am in the wrong spot. He tells me that one of the Sgt. would come over and tell me where I was going. Well after 10 minutes he still hadn't come over. I know he was busy directing traffic and people so I thought I am going to try and find it myself. I ended up driving right to the place I was suppose to be. Imagine that I follow Jeramy's directions and we end up at the right So we get to the classroom and it is packed. I was so excited he was in a building that I could of throw a rock at. So they go through and tell us everything that they can't do while they are away. Then they finally let us out to see the guys. You know 217 guys all dressed the same all look alike. So the kids and I step back away from everyone and try and find him. I finally call him and he is stuck filling out paper work. He finally comes down and the kids and I see him. Words can't describe how good it felt to hug him and kiss him. You know the warm fuzzy feeling, yup had it all over. So we sign him out and go back up to the bay and get his personal bag. We get in the car and drive to the hotel. We take pictures because he was all dressed up in his class green's. Then he changes into his civilian clothes as he calls them and we go to taco bell. We were all talking and laughing. The kids were so excited to tell him all about school and what they had been doing. After we were done we went back to the hotel. We didn't leave until it was time to take him back. We ordered pizza and he ate all the snacks that I brought for him. He drank Dr. Pepper watch movies.... It was amazing to sit there and bull shit with him. To watch his face, the expression, everything about him just amazed me. We talked about his plans and where he wanted to take his military career. I am just so proud of him .The way he talks, the way he carries himself is just out of this world. You can just see how good he feels about himself. The time came all too quickly for him to get dressed and take him back. It sucked.... but I was alright with it knowing that I was going to get to see him the next day. Friday morning the kids and I got up and got ready. The graduation was wonderful. It was awesome seeing 217 men all do the same thing at the same time. The drill Sgt. would say something and they would all at the same time move whatever hand or leg they had to. After the graduation we got 20 minutes to hang out with him. That passed all to quickly also. The kids and I went back to the hotel and waited for him to call. Finally about 1:15 he called and said he was on his way to the airport. So we piled up in the car and headed to Louisville airport. We got to spend about 3 hours with him there, then it was time for him to get on his plane. That was the saddest part. Knowing that I wouldn't get to see him until Thanksgiving, knowing that was the last time I could hold his hand, or hug his neck or kiss his lips sucked! So he got on his plane and the kids and I left and went back to Fort Knox. We spend the night there and were up and out of the hotel by 9am. We filled up the car with gas, got some food and were on our way back to Texas. We stopped a few times to get gas and eat, but other than that we drove straight through. 12 hours in a car is so LONG! We got home about 9:40 Saturday night. Bitter sweet it was. I was glad to be home but sad that I had to leave Jeramy again. I have to say that besides my wedding day and the birth of my children, those two days I had with him were the best in my life. Saying it was amazing is a huge understatement. I have to wait two more days, and if everything goes alright then I can share some more good news..... I am praying so hard, wishing upon every star that it happens..... we will see. (No I am not talking about being prego)

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!