Well Jeramy came home Thanksgiving morning. I was so excited to see him. Even though it had only been 10 days since I had seen him last, I was still beside myself. It just feels so good to have him by me, so good for my soul! Anyways I got my mom to watch the kids Thanksgiving morning. I went and picked them up around noon. Jeramy was sleeping so we hung out at her house for awhile. He hadn't gotten any sleep the night before so I was trying to let him sleep for as long as I could. I finally woke him up around 2:30. He got ready and we were on our way. We went and picked up his brother Kevin and then headed to Tabitha's house. We all hung out, drank wine, watch the cowboys game. There were a lot of smiles, laughs and good stories to go around. Jeramy started crashing around 10ish, so we left, took Kevin home and then came home and crashed. We hung around the house for awhile and then went over to my sisters house. Jeramy left when Ashley was 6 months pregnant so he had never met Daegan. It was so fun seeing him hold Daegan he actually fed him while he was holding him. We left Ashley's house and got some dinner. Then we got ready to go out that night. Tom, Tabitha, Melissa and Melody came over. Meliss watched the little kids, and us big kids went out to city streets. We met Tony, Shannon, Carl and Tabitha out there. I had so much fun!! Jeramy was drinking and out on the dance floor bustin moves. Shannon trips me out with the shit she does. She was doing the lawn mower, the shopping cart.....I was laughing so hard! Then us girls got up in the cages and danced our asses off! Fun Fun Fun!!! Saturday we did nothing. Hung out at the house all day. Jeramy played the PS3, the kids played on the computer and then went outside and played with their friends. I just chilled.... We woke up today around 8:30. We laid in bed and talked and watched tv for awhile. I went and got breakfast, we all ate and then got ready. We were at the airport by noon, and Jeramy checked in. Then at 12:30 it was time for him to leave again. I told him he was such a tease for coming and going. We both agreed that it was just going to be a tease until he was home for good lol..... anyways he is back safe in his home away from home. I am going to hit the sack. Tomorrow is my first day to watch Daegan while his mommy goes to work!! I'm excited!!!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
My sexy husband will be home in 10 hours!! I am so excited. Yes I know it has only been 9 days since I saw him last, but it still feels like forever. I love this picture of him...in his little world talking away with Tony.... I really can't wait for him to get here. The plan was so get up in the morning and take the kids to my moms house at 9. Then go to the airport and pick him up. Well that kind of changed. Zane and Zoei were playing in the laundry baskets tonight and fell over in them. When Zane feel he hit his head on the window sill, and a huge knot came up immediately. It freaked me out because it came out so soon, I mean we are talking within 2 minutes. So I called my mom to see if she thought I should take him to the hospital. She said no, just get some ice and put on it and she would call me back. Well I don't have any ice so I got a cold rag and put in on there. He sat in my lap and cried and I just held the rag on it. My mom called me back and asked if I wanted her to come over to look at it. I told her that I would just pile the kids up in the car and come over to her house. We both agreed that it would be something to get Zane's mind off of what just happened. So we went to my moms house and stayed there for an hour or so. Zane started getting tired and he talked my mom into letting them stay over there tonight. My mom didn't care so I left them there. I have to say that it will make my morning a lot easier, but I'm still worried about his head. You mind automatically goes to the worse thing when you kid gets hurt, especially when it's their head ya know..... I will call them in the morning and check on him on my way to the airport, did I mention that I get to pick up my husband tomorrow..... lol anyways, tomorrow is going to be fun. It's Thanksgiving, so you get all the good food and crazy time with the family. This year I am even more thankful for where I am in my life. This year has been a growing period to say the least. Jeramy leaving has been the hardest thing for me to go through. But in the same breath I will say that it has made me a better, stronger person and a better mother. I have always know that I could probably do it all, let's face it even though I was married before I still had to do it all, but never had to do it alone. I now know that no matter what I can hold my head up high and do what needs to be done. With me not having to work, or stress about money or bills, I have really been able to focus my time with my kids. They are so precious. Yes they get on my last nerve and drive me insane sometimes, but I couldn't imagine my life without them. It's a privilege to be their mother. So anyhooooo I am going to go to sleep, well try and get some sleep. I am so excited that Jeramy will be here soon, I don't know if I will be able to sleep! Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Well Jeramy called me Monday around 6. He said that he was released until 2200 Wednesday night and said "Man I wish you were here." We talked for a few more minutes and he let me go so that he could go change out of his ACU's. As we hung up the phone my mind starts going. In the time it took him to change and call me back I had already looked at our account to see how much money we had, and was thinking could I or should I really pack the kids up and just go..... I told Jeramy my plan and basically after a couple more phone calls my mind was made up. I packed up the kids and we were on our way. We left at 8:30 Monday night. Zane was asleep by the time we were on the other side of Dallas. Zoei stayed up for a little bit but then she was asleep by 10:45. So there I was, my kids were sleeping, and I was drinking energy drinks, singing my heart out and letting my mind go wherever it wanted to go. After driving for 24 hours and 1500 miles we were in Fort Eustis. I was dog ass tired, by this time it was 8:30 Tuesday night, but when I saw Jeramy's face, I got a new wind under my ass. We just ended up getting a hotel right outside of base. The last thing I wanted to do was go searching for a hotel. So we hung out the rest of the night and we were all asleep by 10:30. We didn't set an alarm and just woke up when we wanted to Wednesday morning. I went to McDonald's and got us breakfast. We basically did a whole lot of nothing on Wednesday. The kids played and wrestled with Jeramy. Before we knew it, the time had come to take Jeramy back for his formation. So we got in the car and took him back. Then the kids and I went back to the hotel. We woke up Thursday morning and got ready. I checked out of the hotel we were in and went about 5 minutes down the road and got another one. I unloaded the car and we got settled in. We knew Jeramy wouldn't be able to leave the base on Thursday so the kids and I were going to go exploring Newport News Virginia. Jeramy called right before we walked out the door, so we went up to the base. We picked up Jeramy and his battle buddy Blackburn. Took them to the PX and to get cigarettes. We stayed about an hour and then they had to go back . After that the kids and I went and took pictures by the beautiful trees and went to Kmart so that they could pick out a toy. After that we went back to the hotel and did pretty much nothing for the rest of the night. Friday came along..... we watched TV and played in the hotel. Then Jeramy called about 4 and said he was released. The kids and I went and got him, went by the grocery store to load up on some food and came back to the hotel. We had to get up at 5:15 Saturday morning because Jeramy had to be in formation at 0700. After his formation we went back to the hotel so that they kids could get dressed. We just loaded them up in the car that morning and let them sleep during the formation. After they got dressed we went to IHOP and ate breakfast. Then we went back to the hotel and Jeramy fell asleep. His usual routine on Saturday is to catch up on his sleep. It didn't matter to me I just loved being in the same room as he was. When he woke up we all loaded up in the car and went to the bowling alley that is on base. We bowled 3 games as a family. It was so much fun bowling and drinking beer with my husband and kids. After the third game we left and went back to the hotel. As we were watching TV a preview came on for the movie 2012. We decided to go to the movies. After looking at maps figuring out where we were and where the closest movie theater was we were on our way. Zoei feel asleep about 3/4's of the way through the movie but Zane stayed awake for all of it. We went to sleep and had to get up again at 5:15 Sunday morning. After the formation we all went back to the hotel and went back to sleep. I don't think Zane ever fell sleep, but Zoei Jeramy and I did. When we woke up we decided to go to the ocean. It was only a 40 minute drive from Newport news to Virginia beach. We spent about 2 hours letting the kids play in the water. Jeramy couldn't stand them not getting the full effect of the waves so I went on the board walk and bought him so shorts. He changed right there on the beach and took the kids in the water. About 3 we headed back to the hotel. We got back in time to watch the cowboy game.( they sucked on Sunday!!!!) Then we had to take Jeramy back at 2000 Sunday night. It sucked having to take him back but knowing that he would be home in a week, it wasn't too bad. The kids and I went back to the hotel. I loaded up everything and then we passed out. I woke up at 5 Monday morning and got dressed and loaded the kids in the car and we hit the road. I got through Richmond almost to the next town and I have a blow out. I ended up at an exxon and called 911. They transfered me to the state troopers office and a cop showed up about 15 minutes later. He was so nice....I was in kind of a panic but trying not to show the kids because they feed off of your energy and if they knew I was freaking out on the inside they would of been freaking out. Anyways the cop calls a tow truck and about 40 minutes later it shows up. The guy loads the car up and here we go. I was praying the whole time Lord, don't let this be some crazy person.....lol he was taking us down these back roads, I had no idea where I was or where he was taking us. Well, I knew he was taking us to his shop but I had no idea where that was. So we get to the shop and he fixes the tire situation and two hours and 95 dollars later we were on the road again. It was a lot cheaper than I thought it was going to be..... At 8 Monday night I had already been driving for 15 hours, my legs and back were hurting. I knew that if I made it all the way to little rock I wouldn't stop. It only being 5 hours from home, there is no way I would of stopped.... So 80 miles outside of Memphis we stopped for the night. We spent the night in Jackson Tennessee Monday night and woke up at 8 Tuesday morning. We didn't bring anything in the room with us, so we just loaded our butts in the car and headed out. I hit Dallas at 5:15 Tuesday evening so I hit TRAFFIC! I don't think they understood that I had been driving for 8 hours that day and all I wanted was to be home. lol So about 6:30 we walk in our front door.... So freakin glad to be home! I was so excited to be able to sleep in my own bed but couldn't settle myself down to go to sleep lol...imagine that! I finally fell sleep around 1, so 7am came really early. I got the kids up and ready for school. They were really excited about going back to school and seeing all of their friends. That brings me to here and now. It's 12 noon on Wednesday. My mom is pickin up the kids from school today....I really should start unpacking and doing laundry but quite frankly I don't give a damn right now lol.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
When we are apart, we are worthless, but when we are together we are unstoppable. Those are the words my husband used to described us and our relationship to his battle buddy Green. The smile on my face is from ear to ear. He is just so right when he says that. What I suck at, he is good and where he sucks I am good. We truly are each others soul mates, we complete each other. I love him more than anything in this world, and I don't know what I would do without him. I told him tonight that even though I know he is coming home, even though I know this won't last forever, I feel like a lost dog. He said I know what you mean baby, he said I feel like apart of me is missing...... can't wait for his ass to come home, 18 days and a wake up
Friday, November 6, 2009
This morning I am filled with so many emotions. So proud to be an American, so thankful for the men and women who serve our country. At the same time I am filled with so much hate for this man. Who has the right to take innocent people's lives, how in the hell can anyone justify killing these soldiers who are just doing their job? Those men and women volunteer to go through so much. They are willing to lay down their lives for our country so that we can have freedom and live the way we want to live and this son of a bitch thinks he has the right to take all of that away from them. He is a soldier, how can you turn on your own people. The people you swore to stand beside and defend , "I AM AN AMERICAN SOLDIER. I AM A WARRIOR AND A MEMBER OF A TEAM. I SERVE THE PEOPLE OF THE UNITED STATES AND LIVE THE ARMY VALUES. I WILL ALWAYS PLACES THE MISSION FIRST. I WILL NEVER ACCEPT DEFEAT. I WILL NEVER QUIT. I WILL NEVER LEAVE A FALLEN COMRADE. I AM DISCIPLINED, PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY TOUGH. TRAINED AND PROFICIENT IN MY WARRIOR TASKS AND DRILL.I ALWAYS MAINTAIN MY ARMS. MY EQUIPMENT AND MYSELF. I AM AN EXPERT AND I AM A PROFESSIONAL. I STAND READY TO DEPLOY ENGAGE AND DESTROY THE ENEMIES OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA IN CLOSE COMBAT. I AM A GUARDIAN OF FREEDOM AND THE AMERICAN WAY OF LIFE. I AM AN AMERICAN SOLDIER." How can you stand for this statement and then turn on them....... I hope and pray that he lives. I want him to have to face everyone of his peers, everyone he has worked with since joining the military, all the soldiers that were killed or injured by him, I want him to have to look into their eyes and the eyes of their families, I want him to have to look into the eyes of all Americans and I hope he feels like we are against him. I think he is a bitch and since he couldn't handle the stress of what was about to happen I think in his eyes he was taking the easy way out. Let me start shooting and killing people so that they will shoot me and I will die. Too much of a pussy to kill himself so he decided to kill innocent people. How dare him?? How many other soldiers really want to go to Iraq or Afghanistan? How many other families really want to deal with the fact that their loved one may not be coming back? Not a damn person wants to go through that but do you see other soldiers killing people to get out of it? Fuck no, you man up and fuckin deal with it. As scary as it is, as uncertain of the outcome you may be, you man up and do it. I am just appalled, and seriously want to beat the shit out of him. Is that going to fix anything, is that going to bring back the people who lost their lives, no.... but it would give me some gratification. Some would say I just need to pray for him, but I am so not there. Fuckin bastard, hope he spends the rest of his life in prison and then goes straight to hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
As of today we are down to 22 more days until we see daddy again! I am getting so excited! He is too. I talked to him last night on the phone for about an hour. He passed his first test in the hanger. I am just so proud of him. He really has taken this Army thing, and learning to a whole new level. He is just soaring, and you can hear it in his voice when he speaks. LOVE HIM!!!
Anyways, what has happened in the last week. Well not really much of anything. Halloween was Saturday night. Zane dressed up as an army man (imagine that) and Zoei was Hannah Montana. I took them trick or treatin around my moms neighborhood. It was fun. There weren't alot of houses handing out candy this year. I was pretty surprised. After I took the kids I went home and got ready. I was a pirate this year. I met Tabitha, Shannon, Carl, and Wes up at G's. I had a pretty good time. But other than that, nothing has really happened.......
I was reminded on Facebook by my sister that she too came to G's!!! LMAO!!! It has been so long since she has been out with me I forgot about it! So here you go ashley..now everyone knows you came out to G's with us!!!!! So glad I finally got to drink a damn beer with you!
- Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!