Thursday, December 29, 2011


Today is the beginning of my 4 day weekend. WHOOO HOOOO It will really screw me up next week but then again I will enjoy every minute of it. I was pretty screwed up this week with having 3 days off, I can only imagine what next week will be like. Tomorrow the kiddos and I are just going to hang out at the house. Jeramy has to work. We are going to take the tree down and get the house back to normal. They won't enjoy any of the cleaning but I sure as hell will enjoy having my house back to normal. Love Christmas time, love the tree being up but only for about a week lol. I am not the type of person that puts the tree up and brings the Christmas things out right after Thanksgiving. I can only handle it for a little while. I am looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. I probably won't sleep past 830 cuz Zeelynn will wake up, but at least I will get a little more sleep. Anyways, going to get the little ones out of the bath and put them to bed....I'm ready to crash right now!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Truly blessed

I can't even begin to tell you how truly blessed I am. I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my lover, my everything. I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else. He knows me better than I know myself sometimes. LOL The other day I was putting oil in the car at J's work. His co worker came up to me and asked if I needed help. I told him I was just putting oil in that I was fine. Fast forward to last night, J and I were riding in the car together on our way home. I told him what he did and J said yeah I know he told me. Jeramy went on to tell me that the guy said, Don't take offense to this, but now I know why you say your wife it too hot to cheat on! It took me a minute to register what he said, and then I asked him, You really say that about me? He said hell yeah I do, You are too hot to cheat on. Not that Jeramy would ever cheat on me, he's not that type of guy.... How do I know that, all men cheat.... well not my Jeramy. I know with every ounce of my being that it would never happen. I can't tell you how good it feels knowing that my husband, a man I have known since I was 14 years old, a man who has known me at almost my worst and seen me at my best goes to work talking about how hot his wife is. Made me smile for the rest of the night. I posted it on facebook last night and it had 16 likes on it. The girls at work were talking about how good of a guy he is and how they need to find a man like that. Truly a lucky girl to be able to be married to a man who truly loves me with everything he has, everything he is and everything he will ever be. There are not a lot of women who are blessed like that. 
On to my children, they complete me. I can't imagine not having them. Has my life been hard, yes, has my life been challenging, yes, would I trade any of it for anything? NOT A CHANCE! We just got through the Holiday season, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I found myself just watching them, seeing how they react to life and certain situations and I am just amazed. Amazed at how much a young man Zane has become. Amazed at what a beautiful young lady my daughter has become. Amazed at this little baby girl who is just truly a blessing in our lives. I love those kids more than life itself. LOVE  LOVE LOVE them! 
I now have to go get those precious little munchkins out of the bath so that they can get ready for bed. 

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Two weeks away from Chrismas

HOLY COW!!! I can't believe we are so close to Christmas. Time is just flying by. I really haven't been blogging like I usually do. Since going back to work, I really don't have the time. Let's catch up a little bit. Halloween, Zane was a vampire, Zoei was cleocatra, and Zeelynn was a lamb. They were all so CUTE! Love those little boogers more than anything. We had Thanksgiving at our house this year. It was nerve racking to say the least. Managed to feed 18 people and the Cowboys won so all in all it was a good day. Now we are on to Christmas time. Zane wants a BB gun, Zoei wants a laptop, and miss Zeelynn just wants anything that she can climb on or dance too. That little girl is growing so fast! All three of them are for that matter. Anyways this blog really is just me rambling so I am just going to go. Maybe sometime this week I will be able to sit down and spill everything that is on my mind....until then!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Really? It's been over a month...

I use to be able to type blogs out like there was no tomorrow. Sometime even doing two or three a months go by. SO much has happened. I went back to work after being a stay at home for 3 years. Everything kind of fell into place so that I was able to. My sister went from working full time to just 3 days a week. So financially I had no choice, but mentally I was ready. I found myself just eating to kill time, simple things were bothering me, I found myself wishing my kids would go to bed really early so that I could have an hour to myself before I had to wake up the next day and do it all over again. I was getting jealous of people that had somewhere to get up and go everyday. I missed the adult conversations, I missed having something to do other than stay in my house all day long. Is there a down side to it, of course. Zeelynn is still a baby, and the big kids want me to be home with them. I miss the crap out of my nephew Daegan and I miss the daily conversations with my sister. I honestly can't tell you though how good it is for my sanity and my soul to be working again. I enjoy getting up every morning and having to get ready for work. I enjoy my children so much more now. Not only do I enjoy working but financially it is going to make our lives so much better. This time last year I was 8 1/2 months pregnant with Zeelynn and having to go to mission arlington to get school supplies for my kids and my mom was the one that bought all their clothes for school. That won't happen this year. Hopefully not ever again.... Another thing that has changed is Kyle is back in the kids life some what. He has been writing Zoei on the computer every time she writes him, and has been paying his child support. Him and I speak maybe once every 5 or 6 days. I really hope he has his life together and keeps making the kids a priority. They want a relationship with him, and have every right to have long as he has his shit together. I refuse to have them exposed to crazy crap ya know....
Anyways, I am going to go...really can't think of anything else to say. Peace out!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

So much has gone on:

but yet I have this writers block going on and really can't get anything out. First off I can't believe it's been a month since the last time I blogged. I use to do this daily, it was part of my routine. I guess back then I was also fighting with  my ex husband so I had a lot of shit to say lol. If it was a big fight I could pump out two or three blogs in one day. Now it's like I read blogs everyday but when it comes to putting something together for my own, it doesn't happen. 
Let's see updates on everyone in my house: Big daddy is just amazing. He is kicking ass and taking names on everything that he does. At work he is going in early and staying late. His bosses just think the world of him. He finally got promoted in the army as well. He is now SPC. Wilcox....LOVE that title lol. He is only one rank under Sgt. which is just wonderful. He was offered a position as a tech in Houston. He still has to fill out the paperwork and turn in his packet, so it's still really up in the air but just the thought is exciting. Scary but exciting. This was the reason he joined the army in the first place. To better himself and make a better life for his family. I have so much respect for that man and what he does for our family. I honestly can't think of another person that I would rather be with or spend the rest of my life with. Truly my soul mate! Mr. Zane man is just groovy. He goes in for pre-op on Thursday because he is going to have his tonsils taken out on the  6th of July.I am scared about them putting him under. The thought of that just scares the shit out of me. But I can't let him know any of that. I have to put on the brave face because kids just feed off of your energy. Other than that he is having fun on his summer break. He plays the game everyday, plays with his friends, has gone many places with my mom....all in all it's been wonderful. Miss Zoei Nicole is April all over again lol.  She is having a blast on her summer break also. Plays on the computer for hours on end, reads her books that she got from the library. Love that little girl, she is so smart and just beams! Miss Zeelynn is standing up on everything lol. She is not happy unless she pulls herself up. That part she has mastered. The part about getting down after she gets up is a different story. She falls and it just pisses her off to no end. She does this wiggle thing now too where she lays down on her back and wiggles like a little worm. It is too cute! Makes everyone laugh. Did I get all my 17 kids? I believe I did well life is amazing and I can't think of any other place I would rather be than right here right now. Does it get trying during the summer when the kids are together all the time everyday, oh yes it does. Do they fight more than anything, oh yes they do would I trade it for the world, not a chance. I love my life and truly feel happy. From the inside out, I am happy

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

What's been going on:

MY SON TURNED 10 YEARS OLD! Holy Moly! I really can't believe that I have a 10 year old. That is just mind blowing to me. We had his birthday that the park and then went swimming just like we did  with Zoei's party. It was pretty fun and I'm glad that his friends came. I really don't understand not RSVP'n to a party but I guess that's not the norm anymore. Seems like the last few parties we have had no one said they were coming and then a bunch of kids showed up.....

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

thoughs on a tuesday morning

I know I have said this many many many times before, and for as long as I am alive I will say it many many many more times....I LOVE THESE KIDS!  They are my world, plain and simple, my life. There will never be anything or anyone more important to me than they are. They are just precious. 
I really can't believe that my first born, my only son is going to be 10 in 11 days. Where in the hell did these past 10 years go? I know I said it every birthday for every child that I have but it's just really crazy that my oldest will be in the double digits. I said to him yesterday Zane I can't believe you are going to be 10 and he said to me, " Mom, I'm going to be in the double digits, every kid goes through it!" LMAO!!! I was like ok put me in my place.... he really isn't my baby anymore. Not that he has been for a long time there is just something about the double digits. It's like when they are 1-9 they are still little people, but 10 is a major milestone.  Crazy for me to think 10 years ago I gave birth to him, my first real taste of reality lol. There is nothing like having a kid, nothing will ever compare to it. The work is so hard and non stop, but the rewards are so big and they just keep coming and coming. I told my mom the other day I can't imagine my life without kids. Some choose not to ever have kids for one reason or the other. I personally think life would be so boring. Yes you could go do be and see the world anytime you wanted to, you didn't have to pack up like you were moving every time you left the house, your money time, everything would be completely about you. I'm sure some love that thought, I'm sure some couldn't imagine having a house full of kids, and a noise level that is through the roof.... I would choose the second option any day. I love those little people more than anything. The smiles on their face, the joy that just explodes from them when they are telling a story, the innocent way they look at the world..., I could just soak it up for a lifetime. Next year our life will change. I will probably be going back to work at least part time, which will change our day to day lives. Who knows though... there might be a way for use to work it out where I can still stay at home. If I have to work then I have to work. No big deal but between us, I would stay at home with my kids till they were grown if I could. Ok, maybe until they thought I was the dumbest person on earth and wanted nothing to do with me.... Right now I am so happy and truly love my life. To say I am blessed is an understatement~

Thursday, April 14, 2011 it

When I think about my life, where I was and how far I have come I can't help but smile. I never in a million years thought life could be this good. I found a quote this morning and it just fit me and my mood so perfectly. It said :“The best feeling in the world is finally knowing you took a step in the right direction, a step towards the future where everything that you never thought was possible, is possible.”
This is Jeramy and I on the night he proposed to me. We were out celebrating his birthday, it was May 16,2008. I had no idea that he was going to ask me to marry him, I honestly don't believe he thought he was going to. At this time we had been together for 3 years. Some how we got on the subject and he just came out with it. He got down on one knee in front of everyone, and Tabitha took a pic of it.

This is us at the end of that night. Love this man more today than I did then...and that says a lot!

Our wedding day. We planned it all in a month. When Jeramy asked me to marry him we planned on getting married on our anniversary, March 20th of 2009. Well you know how life goes and we really didn't do anything to start planning, or saving for it. In Feb. of 2009 Jeramy decided to join the army. He was in construction and we all know how that market fell. Well his Sgt. told us that if we were married he could get him in at a higher rank starting off. So even though we were already engaged, and were going to get married just putting it off for awhile, his Sgt. gave us the final push. He was going to get sworn in March 24th, 2009 so we had a month.
My wedding was everything I ever wanted it to be. Small, simple and filled with the people that I love the most. Wasn't nervous, just really excited! I didn't do the whole marriage thing the right way the first time around, so my daddy walking me down the isle was, well just amazing.

Fast forward to 2011 and we now have three kids. Zane is now 9(only for another month), Zoei is 8 and the newest addition Zeelynn is 7 months old. Jeramy is the best father I could of ever asked for my children. He loves them and will stop at nothing to make sure we are all alright. I get to stay at home and be a mommy to my children and a 9-5 mommy to my nephew. I see them off to school every morning, and am here when they get home. I get to walk into the girls room in the morning and hear Zeelynn talking, and my heart melts when she notices me and her eyes get so big and bright and there is a smile from ear to ear. Truly what life is all about. Can't imagine being anywhere else, or doing anything else. At least not for now. Do I have goals and things I want to do, yes....but right here right now is where I am suppose to be. Thank you Father God for today, for the many blessing in my life, deserve nothing but yet you grand me with it all and for that I am grateful!!!!! AMEN

Monday, April 11, 2011

Thank you God

I’m thankful for each strand of hair
That grows upon my head
I’m thankful for the clothes I wear
And for a nice warm bed.
I’m thankful for the caring friends
Who make me feel so glad
I’m thankful for a doctor’s care
When I am feeling bad.
I’m thankful for my family
Who cheer me when I’m blue
I’m thankful for the U.S.A.
And for our soldiers too.
I’m thankful for the gentle rains
That fall upon the earth
I’m thankful for the life it brings
And for a baby’s birth.
I’m thankful for a sky of red
In early morning light
I’m thankful for the setting sun
And for the stars at night.
I’m thankful for a place to pray
And for the books I read
I’m thankful for a loving God
Who meets my every need.
                                                            Written by: Marilyn Ferguson

  Well this past Monday was a crazy defiantly one for the books. Jeramy went to work and on his way home he turned onto our street and the car died. He tried to start it again but it wouldn't go. He came and got me and I steered while he pushed the car home and into the driveway. We checked the fluids and crap, walked up to the gas station and got some gas, put it in. Nothing it wouldn't stay started. So I called my dad and he came over and told me it was the fuel pump. The problem with buying used cars is that you don't know who had it before you nor what they did or didn't do it to. Our Firebird that we had, we had to replace the fuel pump within a week of having it. Anyways we looked it up and the price for a fuel pump is 250. We have three kids on basically one income, we don't have 250 just laying around. We figured that we would call the car company in the morning and see what they say. They have a repair was a start. I called them and found out that it would be 420, labor and parts. Jeramy called me to see if I had found anything out, so I told him the news. He said well wanna her my good news, of course the answer was yes. He said that he went into work and talked to him boss. He is getting hired on through Butler. He has worked through the temp company for 7 months, and they are just waiting on his paper work to go through. Jeramy told Jeff that he didn't know if he could take the job right now because our fuel pump went out and needed to get it fixed. Once he gets hired on they are going to hold the first weeks paycheck, so it could be 3 weeks until he gets a paycheck. Jeff told Jeramy that he could give him a loan from the company, and gave Jeramy 400 dollars cash!!! THANK YOU GOD! I got big tears in my eyes when he told me because who would of ever thought that would happen? His boss also went and found a guy that does delieveries for Butler and asked him if he could fix the car. The guy said he would come to our house and fix it for 70 dollars: The part is 250 and if he only charged us 70 to put it in, well that's cheaper than going to the repair shop. You can't tell me that there isn't a GOD and that he isn't looking out for my family. MIRACLE!!! So the guy came over Thursday after work and had the old pump out and the new pump in and the car running all in about 3 hours. Can't tell you how much of a relief that was! 
Way I found the poem: Zane had to memorize a published poem with at least 10 lines.I was looking through the internet and came across this poem, Totally fits my mind set right now. Thankful, blessed, grateful, HUMBLED!

Happy Birthday Zoei

Well today was miss Zoei's 8th birthday party and it was a blast!!  I spent all morning running around trying to get everything that we needed. I should of gone Friday night but we started drinking wine and playing phase 10 so it got blown off LOL. We got pin the tail on the donkey and water balloons. Went to the park and could not of asked for a prettier day. I really thought it was going to be hot, but the breeze was just right. Everyone had a blast. The kids played on the playground, busted the water balloons and did pin the tail on the donkey. Us adults just talked and hung out. I must say and I said this to J's sister that it was pretty ironic that my husband, my sexy stud of a man Jeramy was talking, hanging out and didn't give two shits that it was Kyle's family. J is just such a cool cat and can hang in any situation. So much respect for that man! Anyways after the park we all went to the YMCA. I hadn't planned on swimming, but J said that he wanted to. So we stopped by the house and changed and actually went swimming.

I didn't get any pics of us swimming well because I was in the pool with everyone. It was so much fun, Jeramy was throwing us all around like rag dolls. The kids had a blast...all in all it was a beautiful day. Happy Birthday baby girl. Dad, Mom, Zane and Zeelynn think you are the coolest 8 year old girl around and we love you more than the stars in the sky.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Happy Birthday Zoei

8 Years ago today my first daughter was born. Zoei Nicole Williamson.

I really believe that I could go on and on with the pictures. I seriously could sit here and look at them all day long, it just takes me back to different times in my life. The journey that I have been on with her these past 8 years. It's just crazy to me, crazy crazy crazy!! I love you Zoei Nicole more than you will ever know. You are so precious to me and your smile, your laughter, everything about you is food for my soul. I can't imagine my life without you in it. Happy Birthday baby girl, mommy is so proud of you!

About Me

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!