Saturday, August 6, 2011

Really? It's been over a month...

I use to be able to type blogs out like there was no tomorrow. Sometime even doing two or three a months go by. SO much has happened. I went back to work after being a stay at home for 3 years. Everything kind of fell into place so that I was able to. My sister went from working full time to just 3 days a week. So financially I had no choice, but mentally I was ready. I found myself just eating to kill time, simple things were bothering me, I found myself wishing my kids would go to bed really early so that I could have an hour to myself before I had to wake up the next day and do it all over again. I was getting jealous of people that had somewhere to get up and go everyday. I missed the adult conversations, I missed having something to do other than stay in my house all day long. Is there a down side to it, of course. Zeelynn is still a baby, and the big kids want me to be home with them. I miss the crap out of my nephew Daegan and I miss the daily conversations with my sister. I honestly can't tell you though how good it is for my sanity and my soul to be working again. I enjoy getting up every morning and having to get ready for work. I enjoy my children so much more now. Not only do I enjoy working but financially it is going to make our lives so much better. This time last year I was 8 1/2 months pregnant with Zeelynn and having to go to mission arlington to get school supplies for my kids and my mom was the one that bought all their clothes for school. That won't happen this year. Hopefully not ever again.... Another thing that has changed is Kyle is back in the kids life some what. He has been writing Zoei on the computer every time she writes him, and has been paying his child support. Him and I speak maybe once every 5 or 6 days. I really hope he has his life together and keeps making the kids a priority. They want a relationship with him, and have every right to have long as he has his shit together. I refuse to have them exposed to crazy crap ya know....
Anyways, I am going to go...really can't think of anything else to say. Peace out!

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!