Thursday, March 27, 2014

My son's time to shine

Yesterday was Zane's choir concert "On the Radio"....
He did such an amazing job!!! There was another kid whom was suppose to have a speaking part in it but ended up not doing it. Zane's choir teacher pulled him out of PE yesterday and asked him if he would do it. He did it, and learned it all in one period. He was so nervous about doing it, but I'm telling ya he killed it!!
As a mother, or a parent for that matter, there is no prouder moment than watching your child shine. My eyes filled up with tears a couple of times because I was just so damn proud of him. He has always been the quite, reserved one, and to watch him get up in front of everyone and speak, sing and dance.... just an overflow of emotions.

 Jeramy made it home in time to go with us. That's always a hit and miss just because of Houston traffic. It's only 45 miles from his job to our house, but it can range from taking an hour up to two. Yesterday he walked in the door at 620, Zane was so excited he was going to get to come. He wanted so bad to show his daddy what he's doing. Jeramy was in choir when he was in school and had concerts and such also, so it's a thing they have in common, can relate to each other with. Absolutely loved it. The smile on Zane's face, the pride in the way he walked, just beaming of I did it.... priceless.


Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Weekend Trip to Austin

So the hubby and I had to go to Austin this weekend for a mandatory Yellow Ribbon Event. Was so stoked about it because even though it was going to be "death by power point", as we like to say, during the day, we still got a weekend alone with no kiddos.
I went and met my mom in Centerville on Friday to give her the kids and then came back and packed up the bags. We took off to Austin around 3. Since we moved to Spring, we found a hwy that just cuts straight across to Austin. Super cool because we got to go through all kinds of little bitty towns. We stopped and ate dinner in a town called Giddings. Never heard of it before until we stumbled across it. We made it to the hotel around 645 or so checked in and went down to the bar.

We had a couple long islands and just sat and bs'd. Talked to some of the guys he was deployed with and random people at the bar.

The hotel was beautiful. Jeramy always says we get the nice ones when families are involved lol. If it woulda just been the soldiers, they would of been shacked up all together and it wouldn't of been this nice of a place. All day Saturday we sat and listened to people talk. We did a couple of group talks, which were fun. Jeramy surprised me and actually spoke in front of all of the people in our group, (something he never does) It was cool to hear other peoples thoughts and feelings about the deployment and how they have been since the soldiers have come back. Saturday afternoon we took a trip to Kyle to see Jeramy's sister. They haven't seen each other since before J was deployed so that was pretty cool. On our way back to the hotel we stopped and got a burger to take up to the room with us. We ate and watched movies snuggled up with each other. Nice quite chill kinda night. Sunday was the last part of the yellow ribbon event.

We got out of there around 1145 and headed up north on 35 to Waco to meet my mom and get the kids back. We beat her there by an hour so we stopped and had lunch. Once my mom got there we loaded up the kiddos and took off on another adventure though small towns. We went through one town called Mert, the population was less that the high school we went to lol. We got home around 630 and everyone went into their own space. The kids played and J and I just kinda vegged out. It was a lot of driving but sure worth it. Love spending time with that guy!

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Saturday May 2,2009

Well these past few days have been pretty crazy. Drama filled, fun filled, worry filled, a little bit of it all to say the least. You already know who the drama is all about. He text me talking crap and then said that I was trying to get a rise out of him. STUPID! He started the whole thing. But anyways, I took care of it and now don't have to deal with his drama anymore! YAY!! I am so excited about it. Last night I threw Shannon and Sarah a birthday party at G's. It was so fun! Drinks were flowing, music was playing...Jeramy went with me so it made it even more fuN! He got me on the dance floor and sang in my ear~ AWWW~ I know we are sick with how much we love each other, but it's fun! Shannon and Sarah were pretty drunk. Tony was I ended up driving shannon's car home with tony, and jeramy followed us with shannon. I'm just glad I got them home safe! Today was a pretty cool day too. Just hung around the house, did some dishes. My sister took Zoei to go see the new Hannah Montana movie with Jessica and Summer. She thought she was all that let me tell ya. She came back so happy! She said mommy summer was a nice girl. We sat by each other at the movies. hahah Right now as we speak, Zane is with Ashley and Tyler going to see the new wolverine?(is that it) movie. He was really excited about getting to do something with Ashley without Zoei being around. hhahahha They are such buddies, but he is getting to that point where he wants his Zane time. I love those little boogers more than anything. So I wish I had some pictures to post of last night, but I was a weirdo and forgot my camera. I remembered the balloons, the cake, the plates, the necklaces, confetti, cards...etc..... but forgot the camera.... sucks ass but what can ya do. Love you all!


Originally written 1*12*10 Obviously just a random hormonal post lol

Maybe it's my hormones but something is really buggin the shit out of me. I won't name any names, which is totally not my style, but I won't do it this time. It's amazing to me that "friends" say they will be there no matter what. You talk with these so called "friends" on a weekly basis. Either through seeing them, talking to them on the phone or textin each other. And slowly but surely they stop coming around. Sure people's lives take on different directions and maybe it happens unintentionally. Maybe I am just pregnant and need to let my emotions go lmao!!!!!!!!!!
Originally done 11/4/10 - Just pics of my kiddos and I
You already know I have to take pic of myself

My favorite girls on Halloween 2010

I smile every time I look at this pic
Zeelynn Nautica Halloween 2010

My family Halloween 2010

Zane the army man, Zoei the Spanish princess
and little Zeelynn

Originally Done 11/17/10 - Another "draft" sitting here, wonder where my thoughts were going with this one: I have no clue....

Even though these little moments are what I live for: Even though I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world....

This is what I felt like and it all came to a head Sunday

 So I struggled with postpartum depression with both Zane and Zoei. I believe it was because not only did I have a newborn, and then a newborn with a one year old, but I was 18 and 20 years old when I had them. Not only was I young but I was doing a lot of things in my life that children didn't need to be around and having to take care of them put a damper on my partying.

Thoughts for Thursday

Originally done 6/2/11 - Really don't remember the point of this post but gonna post it anyways

I really can't believe that it is June 2nd. Tomorrow is the kids last day of school. After tomorrow Zane will be a 4th grader and Zoei will be in 3rd and that means that we are just another year closer to Zeelynn going to school. I can't believe that she is going to be 1 in just 3 short months. She has almost been on the outside as long as she was inside me lol. 

Happy Father's Day

Originally done Sunday June 19,2011
Don't know why there are no pic of Zee LOL

That moment when...

Originally written 4/23/13 in the midst of deployment depression:
Your at rock bottom mentally, emotionally. When your sitting crying not for any one specific reason, but because of everything. You can't talk to anyone because there is always "something behind it", no one else understands where you are, and you just want to be left alone.(even though that would probably make everything worse)  They love to say oh you'll be stronger, or you don't give a shit, or you will be alright, you'll be happy in the end,  put your big girl panties on. People want you to be able to give them comfort, understand where they are coming from, go out and be social when they have no idea you are clinging on to life. You are willing yourself to get out of bed everyday when mentally you don't want to get up and deal with anything life has to throw at you. But you have no choice because you have 3 children that depend on you. You have to make yourself take a shower after days of not doing it simply because your hair is so nasty you can no longer hide it under a hat. (Today is Friday, first day I have taken a shower since Sunday) You find yourself yelling at your kids because everything gets under your skin. Do they do something wrong to cause you to say something to them, yes but is it really a HUGE deal... probably not. You plaster the fake smile on your face because it's what your suppose to do, it's what people expect to see from you. You go on about your day because you have children that are watching your every move, learning and figuring out how your suppose to handle life, but in reality your just going through the motions. Your so detached from everything it isn't funny.... Depression sucks...  You want to go out and just get smashed, but yet you know yourself and your past and how easily you can become addicted... You find yourself wondering is it all really worth it, how much more can one person handle. You are left alone to deal with EVERYTHING. Every single aspect of it falls on your shoulders but yet you have no choice but to be strong. You can't get away because there are always strings attached and if by chance you do have a babysitter it's your mother so your on a time limit. There's no time to let your soul just be free. No days to just get a grip on life and what exactly you are doing because someone else needs something. People will say it's what happens when you chose to have kids. Yes, that's right, they will always come before anything. But who ever said you still don't need me time. Who ever said you don't get overwhelmed with shit and just need to get away? When will this ever end.... can I make it till December????

American Soil and the state of Texas

Playing Catch up: Originally written 12/11/13

He IS BACK ON AMERICAN SOIL/ AND IN THE STATE OF TEXAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can I get a hell mother *&#^(* YEAH!!! They started their adventure at 10am (our time) Monday morning. Jeramy said they left the base on a bus to go to the airport and the bus broke down in the middle of the desert. HOLY COW! Anyways they got it repaired and took off again. They went from Kuwait to Ireland, then Washington State to south Fort Hood, and then bussed to North Fort Hood. Total travel time 48 hours!! He called me about 530 Tuesday night and said they were in Ireland but my damn phone didn't ring! It just popped up that I had a voice mail. I was so damn annoyed!!! I got another phone call around 3am and I looked at the number... it was my husbands number. I haven't seen that number pop up on my phone since March, and it is now December. He said they were still on the plane but were in Washington State. Their lay over was a couple of hours long and then they were headed to South Fort Hood. I got a text message around 9 saying Texas feels good... made me smile ear to ear. I can't tell you how good it feels for him to be back in Texas, but I'll be honest about it. The fact that he is now only 3 hours away, after being over 8000 miles away for 9 months, and I still can't see him SUCKS DONKEY BALLS!!! He'll find out Friday how long it's going to take him to come home. If he doesn't get stuck in medical then they are going to leave Monday... but if he gets stuck, then it will be longer. Regardless if he gets to come home Monday or not, I'm driving there on Sunday. Won't be anything more than driving 3 hours to sit in a car on base with him and then turn around and drive 3 hours back home, but it will be worth every mile of it. Just to be there, with him....
He called this afternoon and we talked on the phone for almost an hour. We haven't done that in 9 months. Thank you God above for bringing these men and women home to their families!!

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Welcome to the wonderful life of me! I am married to my best friend, my soul mate, my right hand man, the love of my life and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful Z kiddos. Jeramy and I have known each other since we were 14 &16, and have been married for 5 years. He is in the Army and I get to be a stay at home mommy :) We have had our ups and downs, life hasn't always been peaches and cream, but we are blessed!