I don't think I will ever get use to the whole "going away" part. It never is gets easy, I never get use to it, it always sucks. I think this time is kicking my butt more because we are in a new city, there's no friends or family around... Just the kids and I for the next few weeks. No it's nothing like being gone for almost a year, like 2013 was, but it still sucks. He's only been home for good for four months, not ready for him to be gone again. Like my friend Tonya said, the selfish side wants them to stay here, but the rational side knows they have to go, and in the end, it's what's best for the family. I know it's true, just having a pitty party this morning. You know another thing I will never get use to... is the mind set they go to. We as spouses, well at least I do, tend to get really clingy. My mind goes to let me spend as much time as I can, let me sit as close as I can, etc....My mind goes to the what if's, because we all know that tomorrow isn't promised whether your on "orders" or simply sitting at your house. The soldiers mind goes in the completely opposite direction. They go to I need to do this, that, make sure this is packed, make sure that is done. They withdrawal, I guess is the easiest way to put it. Mind set goes into complete military mode.... which is the way it needs to be.... just sucks at times for the other person.
Anyways in order for me to get out of this mind funk, the kids and I are going to hit up the beach today. It's suppose to be a beautiful day, they will probably get out in the water, I on the other hand just plan on soaking up some rays!!!